Not really sure where to start but I know I need to get into a community of people who are going through similar things and can understand.
Long story short, I've had two pregnancies - both in 2009. One miscarriage at 9 weeks and one healthy boy born in 13th June 2010 (for which I am very grateful for).
We have been trying to conceive No 2 since May 2012 with no success. To date, I've had hormone tests twice (normal), an HSG (which didn't work but my tubes spasmed), and a laparoscapy and dye test. My husband has also had two SA which were fine (high levels of sperm but with a small (3% apparently not significant) of funky ones. All my tests have been fine - there's apparently nothing wrong with me. I'm 35, healthy weight (ish - could lose a few pounds) and don't smoke.
I've been getting progressively more and more anxious about this and very depressed. I see a counsellor at the infertility clinic every 2 weeks and have been on Setraline anti depressants for 6 months now which help a bit. Days like today I just feel like crying. My little boy keeps asking for another baby and asks me why I can't get one in my tummy. My husband is reasonably supportive but is getting more and more frustrated with my "obsession" as he calls it. My marriage is definitely suffering. My need and instinct for another baby is overwhelming.
My question I guess (when I get to the point!) is surrounding the Clearblue fertility monitor. I started using it this month (only used cheap sticks in the past) and this month I have had high levels of fertility since day 9 and still do today at day 21 - but no peak. I've also started spotting today so it looks like my period is early (this rarely happens - I'm usually a 28 day cycle to the minute).
Has anyone else experienced this? How can I possibly have had a high fertility rating this morning and yet be spotting? Surely my oestrogen will have dropped in order for me to be bleeding? And why haven't I ovulated this month? I haven't had a peak reading so I guess that means I haven't had the leuteal surge.
At my wits end. We have an appointment on May 1st as that's the two year point. I know they're going to talk about IVF and ICSI and I'm dreading that for two reasons: 1. the money (we will be self funding) and 2. I don't think my husband will agree to it.
I can see this picture of me holding another baby starting to really fade now
Would love to hear from others going through something similar and any advice and experience with the CBFM.
Thank you xx
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No second chances - TTC No2 for 23 months - & CBFM questions
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merryscottuk · 20/03/2014 10:41
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