All I want for Christmas...is a whopping great massive BFP!!!!!!!

(6 Posts)
erilou38 Fri 08-Nov-13 16:31:15

Been trying for a little bambino for 15 months now and getting seriously cheesed off. 38 years old, 39 in 4 months time so time is a ticking. Possibly perimenopausal, recent FSH 11.2. Infertility clinic says this is 'reasonable'. Arrrrrgh...it seems my eggs may have run out on me or gone off the boil. I eat, sleep and poop babies, in my thoughts 24/7...driving me fecking insane!! Already have some adorable little people but just crave one more little bundle to make our family complete. This pain and longing is almost becoming too much to bear, i need, for my sanity a positive outcome soon. Hoping to start the great wonderdrug called Clomid next month. Hoping and praying that it will give my lazy ovaries a good kick up the arse and tell them to start getting on with the job in hand. How throughly shit that us females run out of eggs when we reach our mid 30s while males can go on producing kids forever. Banged my other little ones out no problemo in the slightest. Only had to look at a penis and i was preggo...what the fuck happened i ask!!! I'm 38, come on i'm no spring chicken but certainly not over the hill yet. Give me a break Mother Nature please with a cherry on top. Just give me a couple more years worth of good eggs so i can have my longed for baby with my wonderful husband. Give him the gift of a precious child. Plaease let me have the most wonderful Christmas ever and bless me with a beautiful BFP because i just can't do this anymore. I'm giving up for my New Years resolution.

AndIFeedEmGunpowder Fri 08-Nov-13 23:05:17

I hope you get your BFP. smile

kitty555 Sat 09-Nov-13 07:28:27

I want one as well erilou38!! Not trying that long yet, but it is already driving me nuts and have an appointment at our fc in a couple of weeks, aargh sad.
I'll keep my fingers crossed for you smile

j200 Sat 09-Nov-13 07:29:06

Father Christmas BFPs all round please smile x

hopefulgum Fri 06-Dec-13 09:43:59

Me too, me too...though my biological clock is almost completely defunct (please don't laugh) I am 47, but still ovulating regularly, had a baby just shy of my 42nd birthday, and have had three miscarriages since. It has been 20 cycles since my last miscarriage.

I am so sick of getting my hopes up monthly to have them dashed, but on the other hand completely accepting that I am hoping for a miracle. But,bugger it, I want a miracle for Christmas...please?

erilou, how has it been going, have you started the clomid?

Bring on the Chrissie BFP's please Santa...

erilou38 Fri 06-Dec-13 11:54:35

I haven't started the Clomid yet, i start it with my December cycle. My period is due on 19th Dec if it's a28 day cycle. Trouble is i don't think i always ovulate so my cycles are irregular, the last one being 38 days! I have to have more hormone blood tests just before i start the Clomid on day 2 of my cycle. I'm hoping and praying that my FSH hasn't gone above 15 as then i won't be able to have the Clomid. Last FSH reading was 11.2. I very much doubt i will get my BFP in time for Xmas! I'm sorry to hear of your miscarriages, they must have been so painful for you. It's apositive sign that you had a baby at 42, that's quite late in life so you were obviously still fertile. It's also good that you are still ovulating every month and having regular periods. Have you been to see afertility specialist ? Maybe they could prescribe you Clomid to boost your ovulation and hopefully produce more eggs.

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