Very faint before ivf?

[EeyoreIsh]

I'm due to start ivf now. Well, when af arrives. My af hasn't shown yet, I had a tiny bleed of old blood last Thursday. Since then I've had slight cramps, but no proper period pain or spots or spotting.

So, I've just done a test. And got a really really faint line. The test was actually three months out of date (shows how long we've been ttc!).

DH thinks I'm jumping ahead by saying it's a bfp.

I'm torn! I had a miscarriage in Feb after falling pregnant naturally in January. I've got endo and low amh, so even with ivf my chances were put at 20%.

I am only in day 30 of cycle. I'm scared it will be a chemical pregnancy. I'm scared that if I do stay pregnant that I'll have another miscarriage. And that by getting a bfp naturally twice I'll have scuppered my chance of any further ivf if I do miscarry.

I'm just really scared! I had got myself ready for ivf and now I don't know what to do! I don't want to phone the clinic just yet, it was such a faint line. But they've ordered in the drugs for me.

Sorry for the long post. I'm just so scared and don't quite believe. How come I've tried for two and half years and no whiff of a bfp, and now two bfps in five months, just as ivf is about to start.

[EeyoreIsh]

and to add to my nervousness, I had an mri scan on Friday (after a negative pregnancy test). which is supposed to be bad in the first trimester.

[resipsa]

Just a hand to hold and to say good luck. I so wished I could get a +ve the month before to avoid it all (and save the money).
Let me know if it's still good news today.

[EeyoreIsh]

Thanks respisa.

I don't quite believe it today! DH is buying another test today so we can test again this evening.

It's so nerve wracking! And if it really is a bfp, it'll be a miracle and an answer to prayer!

[EeyoreIsh]

tested again with a test that's in date. Another faint positive, really faint.

I don't really believe in actually pregnant, I worry it will be a chemical pregnancy.

[tattychicken]

Sounds like you are Eeyore! Congratulations!

[EeyoreIsh]

thanks tatty

I certainly feel pregnant today! awake at 6, greasy hair, slight nausea. Although also getting slight cramps which I'm trying to ignore.

I phoned the fertility clinic this morning to tell them. They were lovely, and then I burst into over emotional tears!

I am still in shock

[resipsa]

Congrats! It'll be a story for the 18th etc...

[EeyoreIsh]

I spoke to soon.

I have a little bit of spotting. I just don't think my body is designed to carry a baby!

I'm gutted as if it is a miscarriage or chemical pregnancy then I'll have lost my ivf place

[homeaway]

Ring the clinic back and tell them that you are bleeding, you might be able to have an early scan . Good luck.

[EeyoreIsh]

I'm only 4+4, far too early for a scan, sadly.

If it gets worse or I get a bfn when I test in the morning I'll call them then. And hope they treat it as a chemical pregnancy.

I find it so emotionally draining

[tattychicken]

Oh Eeyore.. I'm sorry. What a rollercoaster for you. Hang on in there, spotting doesn't always mean bad news. X

[Sunnyshores]

a clinic could take a blood test too measure HPG too, its more reliable than the home kits.

[EeyoreIsh]

Thanks. It's got no worse than a little bit of spotting so I've not taken a test. As you say, a home test isn't going to tell me much.

my last miscarriage started this way, a few weeks of spotting getting gradually worse. I'm putting my head in the sand and going on holiday (with my EHIC card!) tomorrow. I'll go to the docs on my return for a scan, by which stage I would be six weeks if I haven't miscarried first.

[Sunnyshores]

Brings back the memories for me... you poor thing. You do know there is absoleutly nothing you can do at this stage, so get some sun and try to relax and come home refreshed and hopefully pregnant. x