I just need to talk I think, so this may be long and ranty!
My DP and I desperately want a baby, so much! I'm 24 and he is 29, we get married in December. We've been together 4 and a half years, and haven't used contraception for 4 years. I have PCOS and severe Crohn's.
Last year we went to a fertility specialist who did a small operation on me to remove the cysts from the PCOS off my ovaries, I had regular periods for a few months but they've stopped being so regular again now. My crohn's is really severe, in 2011 I had my large intestine removed and an internal pouch made, at the end of the month this internal pouch is being removed and ill be getting a permanent ileostomy. I've had so much major surgery done in my pelvis, I have a lot of scar tissue and I'm on strong medication. Coupled with my PCOS I can't see me ever having a baby and it makes me so sad. Every time we see our specialist he wants to start us on Clomid or IVF, but because my Crohns has been so bad it's always pushed back. This latest surgery will prevent me from having any IVF or treatment for 2 years.
I just feel like there's no hope, I feel a failure as a woman and a partner. Everyone asks of we'll be trying for a baby after we get married, I just laugh and say 'oh no not right away, we want to be married first!' to brush everyone off. All we want is a baby, and I just don't think we'll ever get one. It's so unfair, we've been through so much. My body is such a failure.
Please or to access all these features
Please
or
to access all these features
Our Infertility Support forum is a space to connect with others in the same position, discuss causes, treatment and IVF, and share infertility stories of hope and success.
Infertility
I don't think ill ever have a baby.
4 replies
Ouchmyhead · 11/04/2013 00:20
OP posts:
Please create an account
To comment on this thread you need to create a Mumsnet account.