This may seem a right ramble , but I just need to get it out. I have my own business, and have a little childcare for my dd23mths. We dont have the finances to pay for any more time than 4 hrs a wk for her. I have a large job on at the moment, my 1st real big one and Im about 8 weeks into it and im feeling very drained as I have to get so much done with little time for rest and a break from it. I cram in so much in one week , and try and do a lot in the mornings whislt she plays or when shes asleep in the afternoon. I also do more at weekends. Dd also gets dragged all over for appoitnments.
Im not sure if its that my Af is due or that its all just piled up on me , but im just getting into an emotional state about getting everything done and well. Ive spent the morning crying my eyes out and my dd just comes and rubs my arm and says "mummy crying" and then she laughs cos I think she thinks Im laughing. Which makes me feel awful that shes seeing me get like this. I dont seem to have /make any time for friends and socialising , (nice mummy things like going to the park), or even some time to get my hair done or have a massage.
Im forever having to pour over spreadsheets(mainly cos I dont find it easy and have a lot of money to manage for the job) or on the phone chasing qoutes and final prices. Ive got tons of letters & cheques to send out(Ive even had a chasing money letter today which really set me off).I have no energy or time to do it, I have dd at home all day today. IM exausted but dont have the energy to work on any solutions. IM not sure why ive posted here , havent for some months now. Im not sure I even want solutions , just somewere I can may be talk to others feeling the same and can commiserate , give encouragement.
I know Im getting run down as my hairs going lank and I have this tense dark look about my face.
I spose Im also upset with myself for not coping,(I had a much more intense responsibilty in previous career b4 dd), but its such a great opportunity and I will be so proud when its all complete, but Im dreading all the next stages.
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Having mini melt down today , need some help
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slumped · 12/08/2005 10:04
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