I went back to work as a professional this week after five years and having had 3 kids. I enjoyed being at home and much to everyone's surprise have been coping very well with 3 children aged 5 and under. However - I dnt know why I always thought I'll be really happy when I go back to work. To cut a long story short I arranged extortionately expensive childcare and went back. Sat at my desk I knew it would be hard to begin with but I was miserable all week. I knew it'd be hard but I felt like my spark has really gone. It's long hours and my confidence has just rocketed for a number of reasons. I don't think I'll be going back again. Which makes me very happy when I think of the upheaval my going back to work caused the family and home. But also very sad, as I pretty certain that I won't be going back to work for a very long time, if at all. I've just been out for too long and competition is rife. The legal market is extremely competitive. My husband is happy for me to stay at home and run the household ( I do a lot with the kids and they have really blossomed as a result at such an early age) I haven't told my work (they are old colleagues of mine) and I'll be really embarrassed not to mention family/friends and school mums who were very interested in my going back to work part time. I am very confused and just don't know what to do. I just cannot bear to even think about going back into that office. Not at all. The kids are happy and in strange way I too. Five years was just too long a break to take :( . Without wanting to out myself I dabbled in local politics whilst at home and did well despite having young children but I'll be stepping down soon as I don't want to do it anymore. I've been juggling several roles for a while and feel the need to just sod it and take off all the various hats I've been wearing for a while and stay at home and take stock and see where I end up. I just thought I could restart my career but don't think I'll be able to. Very confused at the moment.........sorry for rambling........
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