Lump on my boob

[Splendidpear99]

Hi. I've decided to post here, because I'm struggling on my own with waiting for a trip to breast clinic to have a lump on my breast looked at. I know it's 90% likely to be nothing, but it can't tell anyone as my SIL is currently under going treatment for breast cancer.

I went to docs on Thursday as I thought I could feel a lump, and he agreed saying he thought he could feel a second one behind it. He referred me there and then and I have an appointment on Tuesday morning.

I actually felt fine, but as the time goes on I find myself constantly checking to see if the lump is still there, googling other peoples experiences of breast lumps, and reading all the breast lump articles I can find. . . .
The only person I have told is my husband, but he is quite disabled, we have been through 2 strokes, rheumatoid arthritis, a silent heart attack and skin cancer with him in the past 2 yrs. I am his main carer and have given up work to care for him . . . .. . I keep telling myself to stop being bloody silly, pull myself together, a lump on my good that is 90% likely to be benign is nothing to get myself worked up about . . . . .but my mind keeps returning to it.

I think of I could talk to friends or family I would feel better, but I really don't want anyone to be worrying, they have had enough with my partners health over the past couple of yrs, and family still in shock as my SIL has just started treatment for breast cancer.


I think I'm rambling now, but a friendly chat or hug would be appreciated. Even a few "pull yourself together" s wouldn't go amiss

[Mummywheel]

Hi splendid Why not come across to the Tamoxigang thread where most of us (but not all) have experience of breast cancer. It's not easy keeping your feelings to yourself and we would all be happy to hold your hand. I would suggest if you are going to google keep to Macmillan or similar as lots of information is out of date.

Sending you a Big Hug and try not to worry although easier said than done x

[Splendidpear99]

Thank you mummy wheel. I'm sure I'm being silly and it's nothing serious unlike what you guys have experienced. Your kind words mean a lot tho, and it helped just writing down what I was feeling as I haven't been able to talk to anyone. Hugs back at you x

[helzapoppin2]

Hi Splendid, sorry to hear you're having a worrying time. I hope it turns out to be nothing. Just wanted to say you sound like you've done lots of looking after your husband, but don't forget to look after yourself as well!
You are a very important person!

[Splendidpear99]

Hi helza, thank you for your kind words. It just seems so,trivial,compared to what hubby and SIL are going through. Seems selfish to,worry anyone else until I know if it's actually worth worrying about. Glad to have come on here tho, nice to be able to speak about it x

[Splendidpear99]

Aaaagggghhhh appointment first thing in morning. I've been fine all day, but now getting bit worked up. Guess have a shower, then try and sleep. Got to get up early to get everything for hubby so I can leave him and be in hospital for 8.30. Wish me luck please . . . . .

[helzapoppin2]

Luck, luck,luck, and more luck!

[Matildathecat]

And all good wishes and a big hug from me,too.

Good luck! I hope you have someone to go with? If not we are there in spirit. Post and let us know how you get on.xx

[Splendidpear99]

Thanks for your kind thoughts. Just back from hospital, but no further forward really. Got prodded and told I have a lump! But they don't know what it is. So back next week for ultrasound and biopsy. Feeling a bit meurgh to be honest . . .xx

[Mummywheel]

Hi Splendid just dropped in to say I have been thinking about you today. Another week of waiting is pants. Keep yourself busy and try not to dwell. Remember to keep posting if you need any support x

[Splendidpear99]

Thank you lovely people. It really does help to read the supportive and caring replies. I had a bit of a sulk when I got back from the hospital but now trying to put it to back of my mind. I still believe it's going to be nothing serious, just these brains of,ours play tricks on us from time to time. Anyway fed the man, and taken the mutt for a long walk. Now jacket potato for me. Will let you all know when I next hear something, or if I have a wobble over the next few days x

[Splendidpear99]

Appointment in the morning. Had a few wobbles but nothing too major. Didn't sleep well last night. Hoping I will have an answer tomorrow, but think it's more likely will have to wait again. The brain is a cruel thing, summing up all sorts of worst scenarios especially in the middle of the night x

[Wonderous]

Fingers crossed for you today. Let us know how you get on x

[Splendidpear99]

Just popped in to let you know. All done and all clear. Deep sigh of relief. Thank you all for being so lovely and for your support. It really helped x

[hellymelly]

What a relief! Am so glad for you. I have been through this several times and each time it has been fine but it is so horrible waiting to get checked. ~Have some and