I have 3 beautiful children DS 5y4m, DD1 3y8m and DD2 6 months.
All I can hear at the moment is DD2 screaming at DH as he tries to force her to take a bottle, because for the 2nd time in 3 years I have been told I have cancer.
In 2011 I was diagnosed with bowel cancer, it came as a complete shock, I had a grade 4 n0 tumour removed, 6 months of chemo and thought I was all clear. All my scans had shown I was all clear.
Since having DD2 I have lost a massive amount of weight (20kg), had persistent, explosive bowel movements and experienced bloating like I have never had.
After 2 colonoscopies, 2 endoscopes & 2 CT scans I have today been told that I have inoperable peritoneal disease ( a tumour in the abdominal lining causing an ulcer in my stomach) and liver metastases. It has taken 4 months for all these investigations.
My oncologist wants to start chemo as soon as possible.
I now face a future of chemo, uncertainty and the fear that I might not live to see my children grow up.
I have not namechanged for this as I use this name on twitter and my blog.
If you recognise me, I have not told all my family yet so please do not out me.
While I have been writing this DH has brought me a distraught DD2 and she is happily feeding.
I need help to wean her onto bottles - currently I am using boots wide necked with fast flow tears and cannot really afford to spend a lot trying different bottles.
I don't know what I am asking. Just I know you are not a nest of vipers and provide the amazing support you can.
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I need massive handholding, please
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Knittingnovice · 15/10/2013 17:03
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