Hi all. I had a 4th degree tear after giving birth in February. Labour was going so well but he ended up back to back. Forceps. Blah.
I feel so sad and cheated.
He's great and I've been doing better. But today I got hospital report and while it could be worse, seeing it all in black and white has brought it all back.
I have 'poor anal resting pressure' - I guess that refers to the constant feeling I have of not quite being 'cleared out.'
I feel ok most of the time but now and then feel cheated and sad and hopeless. I just need some perspective and some hope I'll feel normal again.
I haven't had any continence issues and after a rocky start me and my son are bonding more and more each day.
My friend was also my midwife and that's confused feelings of anger/blame at the hospital. They seemed to think I didn't want a c section under any circa and I never said that.
I feel so confused and sad right now. I'll be ok but I just needed to vent. This time last year I was so happy and hopeful and positive.
Thanks x
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4th degree tear, feeling sad.
PeanutButter1 · 25/07/2013 21:06
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