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LONELYMUM..about your other thread. Sorry long!!!!

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trinityrocks · 11/10/2005 22:10

Just wanted to make sure you saw this, hope you don't mind.
I have exactly the same phobia. I did the same as you, I would just know that EVERYONE was going to catch the bug if someone so much as said they felt ill. My dh has had to come home before to help me. I have had to have friends come and stay over just incase dd1 was sick, even if she had just said her tummy felt funny. If I overheard someone in a shop saying that their son or something had been sick I would start to panic, my heart would race, I would feel sweaty, sure that I was going to catch it. Lots of things like that would run my life, I wouldn't go to people's houses if they happened to mention that someone living there had felt ill the night before. I was plagued by panic attacks.It had ruined, ruled and commanded my life for about 10 years before I finally got the courage to do something about it. I finally asked my gp for help and was referred to a clinical psychologist. the day of the first app. (and all the time leading up to it since I knew when it was) was awful. I was terrified that either he would laugh, not be able to help me, make it worse. I was so scared. I knew I would have to admit to him one of the most awful things I feel I have ever done which was not even being able to watch my 3 yr old throw up let alone help her whilst I had massive panic attack after panic attack and sobbed wretchedly down the phone to NHS direct begging them to help me. I don't think I will ever forgive myself for that but I am ALOT better now and getting better by the day.
My dh came with me to my first app cos I don't think I would have managed to get there atll otherwise. It was emotionally exhausting like I have never experienced before. Please just remeber that THERE IS HELP, you are not alone, you can be helped and probably completely cured. It won't happen overnight and it WILL be hard but you can do it. Good Luck and Well Done for taking the first step.

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trinityrocks · 11/10/2005 22:20

bumpity bump, just incase you haven't seen it. PLease remeber your phobia is not stupid, don't beat yourself up about it. Your getting help and you love you children/child (sorry don't remember)

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