It's not you, it's me

[DameFellatioNelson]

I am here out of habit because I don't have the courage to just leave permanently, even though I have fewer and fewer good times on here lately.

I went away for four days this week and didn't bother taking my laptop with me because I suddenly realised that I didn't feel panic at the thought of not having you all with me. Well maybe I did a bit, but I forced myself to do it and it was fine. Just fine. And although I logged on almost the minute I was back in the door I haven't felt compelled to post much, or even to get involved in the big threads of the moment where all the cool kids hang. Which is a breakthrough for me.

I left for a bit around early September I think, but I couldn't keep away properly so I lurked and posted occasionally under a NC. It was an experiment to see if I minded feeling a bit out of the loop, and I found to my surprise that I didn't much mind at all.

My DH despairs of me being all big, brilliant ideas and no action, and he commented last week (in a nice well-meaning way) that by spending so much time on MN I was merely observing life instead of living it. It was one of those lightbulb moments for me - he is so right.

I have so many things that I need to devote more time to than this, and I know that if and when I do, I'll be happier, richer, more fulfilled and less frustrated because of it. I have a small business that I half-heartedly tend to and it needs more of my time if I am too maximise its potential.

I need to physically move around more, get me some of that motivation stuff everyone talks about, and I need/want to apply myself to my three hobbies which I currently spend so little time on that I don't know how I can look myself in the eye and call them hobbies at all, really. I talk about them, I think about them, I read about them, but I never do them.

So that's me done for a bit. I am deeply fond of so many of you that it will be very hard to stay away but I am going to give it a really good go. I might even have to de-reg. Bye gals.

[mistlethrush]

I hope you manage to not de-reg, and simply pop in every now and then, just a bit less... Have fun with those hobbies!

[DameFellatioNelson]

I am going to de-reg I think. It's the only way. I have the world's most crap self-discipline.

So in future if anyone appears with the F word or the N word in their name it probably won't be me. Just in case there are any misunderstandings or rumours of my return with a personality transplant. If I come back I will pick a new, non-blow job related name which will be a relief for everybody, I imagine, most of all me. It was a silly joke that got out of hand and I've outgrown it, but my ego has forced me to keep it on. Sorry for self-absorbed stream of consciousness shite. How dull.

But I declare that as of this moment I am officially MN-ego freeeee!!!! Hurrah! It feels good. I'm standing on the edge and about to jump right now. See ya.

[SnakeyMcBadass]

Farewell, Fellatio. May your hobbies inspire you and your business make you a squillion pounds

[HereComesHoneyBooBooDragon]

visit sometimes though.

[CoconutCake]

Oh FN I did that apart from de reging, you gave me a few kicks up the arse in well meaning ways and one thread when I was very upset you really helped me. I used to be InNeedOfBrandy but I gave up MN for ages and even now I just lurk abit and not get very involved. I do have much more or a life now without MN and normally I just treat myself to a lurk on a sunday morning in bed.

[BOF]

Good luck Fell x

[PacificDogwood]

Oh good luck with RL, Fellatio.

I hope you get lots of stuff done. I'll miss seeing you and your username around .

And you KNOW, you'll be back....

[PeteCampbellsRecedingHairline]

Good luck with everything Fellatio.

Hopefully we'll see you again one day.

[Fenton]

What attention seeking nonsense

[Fenton]

Do I have to post and after that ^ or do we get it?

[YoniMatopoeia]

Good luck fell. You won't know me, as I mostly lurk now,, I used to post more under normastanleyfletcher. I took a massive break after the Christmas appeal stuff a few years ago,

I didn't dereg.

It was good to have the break. I was never one of the cool kids like you, but filling that time usefully was good.

Now, with my commuting I have down time that MN fills up, but it is different.

Anyhoo. Bon voyage.

There are loads here who will miss you.

[usualsuspect]

Good luck.

We haven't always agreed on everything, but I will miss your posts.

[Fenton]

It all sounds very sensible to me, Fell, but I will sincerely miss you, I hope you can pop in from time to time.

Until then jolly good luck with everything, and best of wishes.

[frosty21]

Is this the end of the Ponce Christmas threads . The Christmas topic will never be the same without you FN.

And hello INeedBrandy and normanstanlryfletcher! You won't know me but I remember you both

I always assume a 'Yoni' is a newbie

I dereg and then came back. I NC all the time now. I find it does change the MN experience as you are less involved - but I find that suits RL more.

Arrr .. threads like these really make me miss the old days.

[CoconutCake]

Hi frosty

[usualsuspect]

Hi,Inneed ofbrandy.

I wondered where you went.

[CoconutCake]

Hi usual, I missed you but I didn't want to tell you my new nn (before I changed to this one) because you might not of remembered me! bit big headed to expect that.

[CoconutCake]

sorry FN don't mean to take over with my old popularity and MN ego LOL.

[TheDoctrineOfSpike]

Good luck FN.

[greenhill]

Good luck fell. Don't de-reg though, you might change your mind about your NN.

It's understandable, but depressing that so many old hands are lurking and not getting involved so much now.