fed up with never ending crap days and i just cant be bloody bothered

[copingvquietly]

how am i meant to function when my head is never in one place for long enough.i cant think straight half the time.my mind races then my body gets very tense.im on ads but either they just dont work for me or im beyond help.when im up everything is fine but then as quickly as im up i plummet down.im recovering from a little self inflicted incident which hasnt helped but i just am running out of steam.
i can look after j fine.this isnt about him but about me

[clutteredup]

Poor you it sounds like you are having a hard time. If your Ads aren't working have you told your doctor so he can change them? Have no really helpful advice but bumping for you till someone more useful comes along.

[NormaStanleyFletcher]

oh cvq

Saw this thread title and was afraid it was you.

Sorry you are not feeling good today. You have been doing so well. I wish I could come round there, make you tea and tell you crap jokes (I know it might not help, but I wish I could do something in rl)

[copingvquietly]

im feeling totally fed up with not being me

[NormaStanleyFletcher]

it may well be that they aren't the right ad's for you? How long have you been taking them now?

Maybe you should see about getting them changed?

[copingvquietly]

im on citalopram max dose.i keep pretending everythings alright but it really isnt

[NormaStanleyFletcher]

How long have you been taking it?

[copingvquietly]

2 and a half weeks i think.i cant even remember that

[NormaStanleyFletcher]

I don't know much about ADs (someone will pop in soon that does I bet). I really think you should go see your GP and ask if it would be worth trying a different one.

[copingvquietly]

this is the second lot ive tried now.i feel like giving up on them right now.

[NormaStanleyFletcher]

oh - I forgot that you had changed already (or missed it). I don't know what to suggest.

[loopylou6]

Dont give up on the, they can take 4-6 weeks to kick in, please keep taking them.

[lucyellensmum]

loopy is right, don't stop taking your meds. They do work.

I am on citalopram and have just been prescribed Buspirone, for anxiety that the citalopram is not controlling. I am on 40mg. Ive not cashed in the script yet as i dont want to become drug dependant (i already am!) really. But apparently this is really good for taking as a pick me up so go back and ask your doctor. It is supposed to work well alongside citalopram too, make it work better, although if you have just started it might not be suitable just yet.

You have been through an awful lot, so please don't expect too much of yourself too soon. You need time to adjust but you WILL get through this and i know this is cliche but you will be a stronger person for it.

IF you have only been on the tablets three weeks, you need to give them more time. In the mean time you could try bachs rescue remedy - i dont go anywhere without mine .

And remember, it is OK to take time out and lick your wounds, otherwise you wont recover - so if you have a bad day, go with it, dont beat yourself up over it.

Be kind to yourself.

[Martha200]

The fact you have posted on here means you have not given up and you still have steam left within you, this is all positive.

I think you may need a visit to the dr again to discuss the ads and as already mentioned give them some extra time to kick in.

I am embarrassed to say I can't remember all your previous posts, but I recognise the profile name.. is there anyone you can talk to or rather will listen properly?

Is there any small thing you could do that might help you feel more like you.. no matter how small or insignificant it seems?

sorry can't suggest more than this, but can relate to what you feel.

[vizbizz]

I haven't been on here a long time, so don't know all you've posted, but I just wanted to say you aren't alone. I have been there, and how hard it is hard to get through the day. I remember describing it as knowing that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, but I just couldn't see it, and even found it hard to imagine it was really there. It is there, and you will get there one day.

Give the meds time to kick in and as suggested by lucyellensmum talk to you GP about other meds that may help. It can be such a long and difficult journey and it can feel so incredibly lonely, but you aren't alone and one day you will reach the end of the dark days and life starts feeling like less work, and you find enjoyment in all kinds of things again. I am not out of the woods yet, but it's getting there. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, and for brief moments I feel like I am there.

Do talk about it, it really does help, and there are always so many wonderful people on here to listen and give support. Hang in there and huge hugs

[littlewoman]

CVQ, you've been through so much recently and it's such early days. I know what you mean when you say you don't recognise yourself and you want to feel like you again. I also totally identify with 'I can't be bothered'. Don't be too hard on yourself. You are in the process of becoming a new you, and you probaby don't want to become that new you, because you didn't want the catalyst that caused this change (if I remember correctly). Change is something that is being forced on you, basically, if I remember. It's normal to feel recitent under those circumstances. But with help you can get through this. I promise. So many of us have been where you are, and can promise there is an end to your pain. Lean on everybody you need to. Friends, doctor, MNers. They will be there for you when you don't have strength to be there for yourself. ((()))

[copingvquietly]

thankyou everyone.i got my period yesterday so whether that had anything to do with how i was feeling i dont know.im feeling sort of alright today.and had quite a good nights sleep for a change.i wont give up on my ads but i just get very frustrated.

[littlewoman]

IME it may well have had a lot to do with it. I used to go especially barking mad at xh (after we'd split up) when it was that time of the lunar calendar. I'd send totally outrageous texts to him. After a while, I realised what the mood swings were, and actually used to apologise for my behaviour in advance to xh for the texts he was going to receive in the next week.

Good news that you feel a bit better CVQ. One day at a time, eh?

[NormaStanleyFletcher]

Glad you are feeling better. Sorry I disappeared on MSN last night - dealing with kids and then fell asleep on the sofa

[copingvquietly]

feeling tearful today.not highly charged just tearful.ive been getting more sleep over the last few days now j is having bottles.am i tearful because of too much sleep.i dont know but at least its only tears.