I have a constant feeling of inadequacy, like I'm the child and DH is the adult in our marriage. This isn't through DH's actions, he doesn't treat me like a child, but through my own lack of confidence and life experience. I have a dd of 18 months and am a SAHM. I cant drive and this (i think) is a big part of the problem. It's always on my mind. I was learning before xmas and took a test but failed, then we moved house and I just sort of gave up for a while. I know I need to get back into it but every time i think about it i feel anxious.
Another big reason for the way i feel is that I've never earnt my own money. I was at university before I had dd but gave it up, so have never had a job. Now I am thinking about going back to university this year, but the old driving problem is rearing its head again. The uni is an hour's bus ride away but only a 20min drive, so ideally i'd need to drive there. BUT having no way to pay for a car of my own makes it difficult, as I would like to try an automatic and DH has basically said no. This further fuels my lack of self-esteem as I'm such an adult I can't even choose and buy my own car
I don't enjoy life very much these days, I feel like a scared little girl most of the time, even when faced with minor hurdles. I just want to feel grown-up, like I can actually function in the real world with real, intelligent people, not just live in my own comfortable little bubble and never stretch myself. I'm 21 FGS, not 12!
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Feel incapable, no confidence... and why do I find life so scary?
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NameChangedForNow · 13/03/2008 12:14
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