Sorry to those who have real problems, this will probably sound very self indulgent. Split with my husband in 2006 and since then have been living with my parents, and although they are very nice, it's a nightmare. I got fired from a part time job last summer and have since not been able to find another part time job (don't want to work FT cos of dd, 3), have just heard today that I have failed to get yet another job and it has hit me hard.
I just feel a total failure, I can't even support my own child and I desperately want to move out, but have no idea how I'll ever do it. I think I am fairly intelligent, but never went to uni, so the jobs I can get are pretty rubbish. I suffer badly from anxiety and ibs and this just drags me even lower. I have a new boyfriend who is lovely, intelligent, is very successful etc etc and even though he is fantastic to me I just think that I am nowhere near good enough for him and I feel that I should end the relationship to give him a chance to find someone better for him than me.
At home, my Mum and I rub each other up the wrong way and I am constantly nagged about housework, that I haven't done this or that and that I am difficult to live with as I am moody. I guess she is right in all she says, but it just makes me feel even worse about myself (also my sibling and Dad are depressed, so feel awful for adding to my Mum's stress). I am having counselling to help with my anxiety and self esteem issues, but still feel shit. Sometimes I feel like it would be best for my family and my dd if I just disappeared....but hey, guess what, I'd feel too guilty! I wish I could just go to sleep and never wake up.
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Not depressed, just low. Why is everything so hard?
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greeneyedgirl · 11/03/2008 16:43
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