how can the worrying thoughts go?

[anniebear]

I started on AD's about 8 weeks ago

Feel like they have put a lid on things! Have started Counselling also, told her that Ii feels like I was boiling over all the time and now a lid has been put on, squashed everything down and I am now simmering lol

Hope that makes sense

Its great that they have worked and I am made up.

But I am still left with worrying thoughts

These are nothing to what I was having. I would worry that the lorry on the other side of the road would hit us, then I would , in my head, go through all that would happen to us etc, Like I was in a world of my own watching a tv programme about it

These 'stories' would alwyas been death/illness/me or the kids hurt etc

I dont have all these now but just have the beginnings of them still

They are not ruining my life, I suppose I can live with them. Its good that they have gone to "Oh what if that Lorry hits us " "Imagine if she had Meningitis again" and I able to stop there without carrying on

will this just be with me forever or can I do something

Sorry to waffle, hope it meakes sense!!
Thank you

[solo]

I'm no medical expert, but you sound as though you still have anxiety. If the thoughts have eased off a lot, perhaps they will go altogether in another short while. I'm sure the medication will continue to help you, plus the counselling...talking out your anxieties may help to put everything into perspective, which may ultimately put them to bed once and for all. I hope so.

Good luck with it all.

[anniebear]

Thanks

It has improved drastically

when I told the Counsellor that there are still worries plus I have a feeling I am going to be depressed but it doesnt lead into anything, she said that can be quite a good thing as if my medication went higher may end up constantly on a high!!!! and not feel any other emotions at all!

But, It would be nice for the worrys to go altogether

[solo]

I have suffered depression many times over the years, but with big gaps between, but not really anxiety. The depression does go, but you need to be guided by the doctor/counsellor as far as the meds are concerned, don't go taking yourself off it when you think you are better. You'd most likely drop like a stone. I did! not nice at all.
I can sympathize re the anxiety as I had a close friend who suffered dreadfully, but she is fine nowadays, so you will, I'm quite sure, see the light.
Keep your chin up anniebear.x

[anniebear]

Thanks

No way am I coming off them lol

[Paranoid1stTimer]

Hi anniebear

What you describe is the kind of worrying I have been doing for years, but I had some hypnotherapy and thought it would help me cope since my GP said the waiting list for cog behavioural therapy was so long and I didn't just wanna take AD's when she didn't think I was clinically depressed. I don't think I was/am depressed, just full of anxiety. Hypnotherapist was private treatment thanks to spending a bonus I won at work on seeing her!!! She said she thought I have Social Anxiety Disorder but after about 4 sessions I couldn't afford any more so I just had to stop. I have some hypno cd's that I still work through to try to relax but I never got to the stage where I have controlled my crazy thoughts - especially when I try to get to sleep at night.

I have days where I can't leave the house which is not good since I am about to give birth any day now. I couldn't face antenatal classes as I would have to go on my own and just couldn't do it so now I am convinced something bad will happen to me or my baby because I didn't go to the classes and won't know what to do when I go into labour (although I know classes aren't compulsory and 2 of my friends went into labour before they even had classes and their babies are fine).

OH had a bump in the car the other day so now I am obsessing about something bad happening and can't control my thoughts. I am just constantly worrying about "what if" all these bad things happen and - like you say - am playing them out in my head like watching it on tv or something and I sometimes get angry at myself thinking "HOW can you even THINK like this?!?!?" Like I am a total freak

Sorry - didnt mean to hijack the thread. Again I didnt realise I had so much to say until my fingers just got carried away typing.

What AD's did you get put on? I am worried about taking AD's as well in case I just depend on them forever...

ARGH!!! SOrry - I don't even know if I will hit post message... Ok I will but thanks so much for your post - I don't feel like a complete freak now... WEll.... I do but at least you have a positive story from this...

[Elk]

Hi,

I have suffered from depression for a while now and am currently on AD's (18 months!).
I found that the improvement was a gradual process. I realised I had stopped having my 'bad thoughts' but that I still thought (quite a lot) about having those thoughts- I hope that makes sense. Now I very rarely think about it all,unless I am having a bad day.

Perhaps you are on the same sort journey and the 'worries' will lessen and then disappear. CBT is useful for changing thought processes. I also found a book - Feel the Fear and Do it anyway by Susan Jeffers to be both interesting and useful.

[anniebear]

am on Citlropram (sp?) it has work loads for me Im happy to say and I wish I had gone on it four years ago instead of carrying on and on like I did

At least I am just having one or 2 sentences of worried thoughts now instead of a whole story, but would like to get rid full stop

Thanks Elk, maybe it wil take time. The AD's worked so quickly for me, But maybe the worrying is going to take a little longer

thanks everyone

[anniebear]

Lol, totally spelt it wrong !!!!

[bigwombat]

I have these thoughts too at times, but think they are related to hormones with me - I only get them sometimes. They are always to do with death/terrible injury/accident and can be very disturbing (dd2 also has SN). It seems to be a cycle which spirals - the more you think the negative thoughts, the more negative you become and so on and so on. I have been trying to consciously break the cycle by thinking positive thoughts or 'stopping' the negative thought and trying to make my mind go blank, it does work sometimes (not always)! I've been trying to avoid ADs but glad they are working for you.

[Paranoid1stTimer]

Thanks. I am pretty sure I have been offered these but didnt take them. I am going to see how my "thoughts" progress after I have LO and if anything gets remotely worse I will be off to doc for prescription cos I can't handle it anymore. Especially with sleep deprivation as that makes my worries and thoughts escalate even more and I know sleep dep is part and parcel with a newborn!!!

Thanks again for sharing...