DS is 7 months and for the last two has woken up at five or half past almost every day and refuses to go back to sleep.
I'm exhausted (wasn't good at mornings before I had him ), resentful - and I do know it's an awful awful thing to resent a baby for doing what babies do - and sick of the daily grind of looking after him while I'm so exhausted. I go out loads because being at home makes me feel worse and feel bad about that, too, as should be doing constructive play a la Miriam bloody Stoppard etc etc etc.
We're now doing sleep training, but after a week he has if anything got worse. I am crying with frustration most mornings.
DH has been asking if he can do the morning training as he copes with sleep deprivation better than me. Have been refusing as feel it's unfair, but today he started crying and said I'm refusing help and making him feel helpless. And making him feel we're back where we were two years ago when I had actual depression, only now we have a baby to care for.
I feel completely pathetic and useless. Poor poor man, and poor DS who deserves better than a grumpy cow who doesn't want to play with him. Have spent most of day in tears.
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It's official - I'm a sh*t wife as well as a sh*t mother
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Moorhen · 03/03/2008 15:30
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