i'm ashamed of myself for even posting here. can't be bothered to name change, it's not like anyone knows me anyway. I'm not depressed I appreciate that is a real illness and i don;t mean to undermine or offend anybody, but i don't know where else to post. AIBU will just start a fight that i can't finish. I know there are so many of you out there with real problems and again i hope i don't upset anybody.
I've just had enough. it's too much of a fight all the time. I seem to be constantly running around in circles doing stuff and nothing seems to get done. I love dh and dds dearly and i just think they need better, but i can't be any better. god knows i'm trying. The threenager tantrums are too much to bear. the 18 month old managing to remove whatever clothing i put her in and poo everywhere is driving me to distraction. she's so inconsistent with her sleeping and we all get so grumpy. today i've walked with them for what seemed like miles to get my car tax to be told that my post office doesn't do it. the car seats are in my dhs car (thought we were being clever by swapping them over yesterday to save time before long journey tonight) Another cosmic slap in the teeth. Dh has been lovely (as he always is) and said we can do the tax tomorrow where we're going, which we can. It's not a big issue, but just the straw that broke the camel's back. For every thing I work at to make nice/fix. Something breaks elsewhere. My logic can see that i'm being melodramatic and things aren't that bad, but my heart won't listen. I just feel so old, useless, tired, ugly and worthless. I have nothing to offer anyone. I have no skills or talents and i'm not even a good mom.
just give me a slap. sorry its all incoherent and jumbled. its just an outpouring from my overflowing head.
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chrissnow · 29/02/2008 10:37
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