Scared of everything.

[Notsleeping]

Hi, this is my first time of posting on this board.

Just as an example. My DS has just been referred for assessment by a Child Psychologist for possible Aspergers/ASD. I am absolutely terrified that because of my previous mental health issues - depression and anxiety disorder, that social services are going to become involved and he is going to be taken away. I worry when he is at school that someone is going to come and take him. I find myself thinking that I need to get through the next 13 years till he is 18 and no one can take him.

Most of the time I can function really well, my kids are brilliant and my DH is pretty understanding but I am so frightened about this that I cant sleep, it is on my mind all the time. My DH was an hour late home last night and couldnt phone and I convinced myself that something awful had happened to him.

Does anyone else feel like this ALL the time? I feel exhausted and scared and worried about DS and his issues constantly. I am sure it is telling on me physically as well, have had flu, mouth ulcers and loads of other ailments over the past few weeks. Anyone else been through this or feel like this? Thanks for any replies or advice.

[uberalice]

Oh dear. It sounds to me like you know deep down that your fears are irrational. You need to get these issues off your chest. Have you talked to your husband about it? Or your doctor? When you say "Most of the time I can function really well, my kids are brilliant and my DH is pretty understanding" you need to grab hold of those positive feelings and don't let go of them.

[lucyellensmum]

You are most definately not alone, Scared of everything pretty well sums me up too Its shit isnt it.

I have always been like this but have received treatment in the last year. I am on ADs - citalopram for depression and anxiety disorder too. I think it is very common to be honest.

I think with regards to your son, it is perfectly understandable that you are worried. Not about social services, it has nothing to do with your history whatsoever. Why would they be involved, they wont.

Maybe you need to visit your doctor and discuss some treatment, i know how disabilitating anxiety can be and you dont want it completely taking over

[calebsmum]

Hi notsleeping,

I've also got an anxiety/panic disorder and I worry constantly that something bad is going to happen to my DS or that my mental health issues will affect him. I tend to be alot worse in the evenings. I've been keeping a diary for the pass few years and find it really helps to write down how i'm feeling, I can rationalise it more and see that i'm over reacting. Your not alone at all!