Feeling really down about all sorts of things..

[ScoobyDoo]

I feel down about dp, i feel he is immature & needs to grow up, he thinks because he wroks full-ime & earns the money thats all he has to do, i feel i have 3 children not 2 & hate having all the responsibility.

My dd is getting me down, she is the most challenging, hard work child ever, my life is ruled by her i just can not take her anywhere.

I have a friend who grinds on me, she is very demanding/needy, she is green with envy & like to make me feel like shit, everything i ever buy my kids or myself clothes/toys wise she has to dash out & buy so we all walk round looking the same, it's driving me mad. She likes to try to control me & hates it when i don't talk to her for more than a day

I just want to be on my own, i feel like walking out as soon as dp comes in, i have many worries within my relationship, i live with a recovering addict who i feel i have to "watch" control money, look over my shoulder all the time.

I do Everything, all christmas things for instance, like the tree, buy everything, wrap everything make things special for the kids, dp does nothing just enjoys seeing them happy.

Why is my life like this why do i attract arseholes in all aspects of my life?

I am seriously thinking of just walking out & going in my car tonight, i can't bear to think of yet another sleepless night with a grumpy dp & kids that won't sleep, to get up & do it all again tomorrow!

Should have changed my name for this but i past care now.

[Dior]

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[karen999]

Hugs to you ScoobyDoo - it is really hard going sometimes! Can you maybe do something just for you? Evening class etc - not with your friend...this way you can perhaps make new friends and get a couple of hours off..

[ScoobyDoo]

I have a good group of friends at ds's new school, we chat at school after school etc i like them, a couple are going through hard times with there kids like i am with dd.

But again tonight other "said" friend calls to say do you know that girl you talk to at the school her dp is a drug dealer & has been to prison for 10 months no i did not know but i also don't care, i like the girl my ds gets on very well with her dd & i don't care about her dp & his past, she has to make everything so bad though.

I don't even want to go anywhere i just want to go to bed alone, in peace for 1 night

[ScoobyDoo]

Thanks Dior & Karen, i should not post on here anyway because all i do is moan about how unhappy i am & how i am sruggling, in fact i should not post at all.

Have just had a crying fit down the phone to dp & told him i am sick of the lot of them, him, friend,families & that i am leaving tonight in my car away from them all.

[karen999]

Oh ScoobyDoo - poor you...sometimes it does help to get it all off your chest. How did dp react? I hope he was symapthetic? Are you feeling any better? Try not to do anything too hasty though. I know you are struggling today but speaking to dp about how you really feel may help. And do keep posting....if only to get some hugs....xx

[ScoobyDoo]

Thanks Karen dp was nice, but we will see, he is not due home for another hour or so he is working late, i seem to have days like this every week when everything just gets to much, i did have a bad night with dd last night she gets up every night once but got up feeling tired along with having a bad day with dd where she was grumpy & stubburn with alot of tantrums.

[aquariusmum]

poor you , Scooby Doo. Can you just put them all to bed, get yourself a strong drink and have a cigarette. There is some good telly on tonight. How old is your DD? Maybe telling your dp how you feel will have helped - men need things pretty much spelled out in black and white I find. I remember when I was crying once and my DH was just sitting there. It suddenley occurred to me that he had ABSOLUTELY no idea what to do when confronted with a crying woman. I told him that it is traditional to put your arm round someone who is crying, and listen but not try and come up with an action plan. He was genuinely surprised and now does that. Anyway, big hugs to you from another tired mum waiting for her DH to get home (late again ) from work.

[karen999]

I have days when I think that I am literally going to crack...and I am normally a laid back king of person..but it is a lot to deal with when you are on your own in the day. When my partner gets home from work I sometimes feel quite sorry for him...I let him have it with both barrels but it is my way of off-loading the days stresses!! My dd is 9 months but I have been struggling the past few days as she has the cold and nothing I seem to do makes it any better!

However, both dd's are in bed now. I have told dp what a rotten day it has been and he has listened - he may not fully appreciate how hard it has been but that does not matter. I have got if off my chest. This has made me feel better - and so has the 2 glasses of wine!! I also have to remember sometimes that dp has had a shit day at work...I forget what that is like because I have been at home for the past 9 months but if I cast my mind back I remember that it was rough for me at work some days too. Whatever way you look at it, life is not always easy but if you can communicate with dp and remember that 'you are in it together' things never seem that bad.....and I always count my blessings at night that I have a loving dp and happy healthy kids.....and at then end of the day what more could you want??xxxx

[ScoobyDoo]

Thanks everyone.

I actually feel better for having a good cry i think i needed it.

I think i am feeling down is well because dp has been working loads these past few weeks, needs must and all that.

He is moody because he is tired i am moody because i am tired, dd is hard work but i am just trying to get through it.

I have good days, bad days then really bad days like today & i just seem to crack, everything starts to get me down & i think tiredness contributes to this.

My friend does get me down though quite alot, i do blank it out alot of the time but things happens & i get upset about it all, i do tell dp though & have a rant about it, he fully understands because he knows & see's whats happening, it's a long story but i find her quite draining & controlling.

Oh well another day tomorrow i am sure i will be ok, i feel a bit calmer, dd went to bed at 7pm & ds is off now he was ment to be in bed 45 mins ago but seems to keep coming back out.