I am very tearful today & I'm not really sure why.

[Pinkchampagne]

I haven't been like this for a while & I don't know why I'm feeling quite so down.

My DS was very sick last night just 2 weeks after getting over his last bug, so I have been at home with him all day.
Don't know if it is because I've been stuck in the house or because I am worried about him, but all children get vomit bugs & I've dealt with many before.

Keep thinking about my Nan today & getting upset (she died back in July), and much as I keep thinking about her, I got more upset than usual.

Ex H took the boys around an hour ago, and I am feeling horribly low & lonely. I have been on my own with boys for 6 months now, and have been coping just fine, so don't know why today should be any different.

I am feeling insecure about everything, but don't know why, and I don't know why I am having such a tearful day. This is quite out of character for me.

[NAB3littlemonkeys]

Hi, I asked about you on another thread, hope I didn't set you off.

I think reality may be kicking in for you and it is still early days. You may remember I lost my nan in June 2005 and even now, I can't believe she has gone.

I have days when I am feeling so low and I can't work out why.

Sorry I can't give you any real advice but wanted to let you know I was thinking of you.

[Pinkchampagne]

No you didn't set me off, NAB, infact I am not sure I have seen the thread yet. Thank you for thinking of me.

I think reality is kicking in now. As her death was so sudden & such a shock, I think it really took a while to properly sink in that she was really gone, but now it really is, and I miss her bad.

I have probably had too much time to think today, but I am getting tearful at the drop of a hat.

[NAB3littlemonkeys]

It was expected that my Nan would die but I didn't really believe it, or at least not that it would happen when it did.

It takes time.

She was all I had.

[Pinkchampagne]

It's hard isn't it?

I saw a video of DS1's 6th birthday yesterday, and nan was there smiling, which upset me.

[NAB3littlemonkeys]

I threw out a toy a few weeks ago that my Nan bouight for Ds1's 1st birthday. It has been broken for ages but I couldn't bring myself to get rid of it.

[Pinkchampagne]

I am the same. I have an empty jelly baby packet from her house and a tissue I took from one of her coat pockets. I can't throw either of them away.

[NAB3littlemonkeys]

From hatricks' thread

How are you PC and has the cat settled in now?

[Pinkchampagne]

Ah, bless you.

The cat has settled ok, but still unsure around the children, and she hisses a lot.
She is still called Puss Puss (Nan called her this) as the boys don't think we should change her name. Was quite embarrassing when the vet called her name out!

[NAB3littlemonkeys]

Can't be worse than what my cat is called.

[Pinkchampagne]

Which is....

[NAB3littlemonkeys]

Mushroom

[Pinkchampagne]

Lol! That's quite sweet!

[Pinkchampagne]

have had a bath now & am feeling a little better btw. Think I may be very tired too, which doesn't help with the emotions, does it?

[NAB3littlemonkeys]

Definitely not. I find that I would cry if I wasn't so tired at times. Don't even have the energy for that!

Hope you have a better day today.

[Pinkchampagne]

thanks, NAB.
DS is much better today, so he has been back to school & I have been back at work, which has kept my mind busy.
I also got a better nights sleep last night, so have not been all tearful today, thankfully.