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[tyaca]

oh jesus. this is really bad.
feel borderline hsyterical and if there were booze in the house i'd be drinking myself numb, despite being 19wks pg
panicy panicy panicy and feel i've goen mad. feel so trapped

[fihi]

what started it 2nite? get it off ya chest. no booze, just computer. ahh well.

[tyaca]

i don't know.
checking work emails at 11pm and then feeling persecuted -- this will sound so mad - because of one email
and tax bill today which is hueg
and feel so trapped
and really really despreate for a drink, like its coursing thru me. hard to explain but really panicy. and have just gambled away couple of hundred online,and am having to resist logging back on
need to calm down
thank yo very very much for quick response
have become hysterical out of nowhere

[fihi]

sod the work, it's your own time now!

what do u enjoy? I know you are feeling really frustrated, and with good reason, but how bout we try online chillin out?

[tyaca]

hey fihi. ty v much
i like a good kip. and reading kids books, and hanging out with DH. also like playing poker but its the root of all my evils.

[tyaca]

i know. but its an itch thing. like i dont know what else to do, esp now i cant drink. plus sometimes it feels like the only way i will ever have any part of the life i want