Name Change here, but regular poster I'm sure many of you would recognise.
I don't know if I'm depressed but i think I'm losing my mind. I love my girls so much I would die for them, and kill to protect them, but at the moment all I want to do is get away from them.
I just want to shut them out and be on my own. I don't want to be around them. DD1 is driving me insane and every time she says mummy I cringe and want her to go away. DD2 is giving me some trouble with sleeping. Neither of them are that bad so I can't understand why I am having so much trouble coping when women cope every day with so much more than this.
I feel like I am utterly failing them and I don't know what to do. I am having wild thoughts that I just want to run away and fuck off somewhere.
DH isn't here much under circumstances we can't change at the moment, so am doing it mostly on my own and I get so little time away from them that it is now all I want.
I want more than anything to be a good mother and mostly I am ok, but then I have days like today when I just want to shake them til they shut up and shut myself away.
I think I should never have had children and I don't deserve them,, and I am utterly failing them.
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Failing my girls
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PricklyHedgehog · 17/07/2007 14:10
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