I have a DD who is 2, her birth was very traumatic and I had counselling after her birth as I had ptsd diagnosed. Looking back I think I was also rather depressed but I gradually got better. I didn't really bond with her for about 9 months though.
I have recently had my second baby, a little boy, 4 weeks ago. I am still rather weepy over nothing but don't feel depressed as such, just a little low. I don't feel particularly motherly to him. At times in the first two weeks I did wish that I hadn't had him at all, but then I felt terrible because he was wanted and is so gorgeous. This has been better recently but I still haven't had any overwhelming love feelings, if that makes sense?
I am however, starting to worry that I am permanently worried something bad is going to happen to DD. Since I got home from the hospital I have panicked about doors being locked and windows etc. I even made my DH put the house alarm on overnight a few times. I feel totally paranoid. I know the Madeleine McCann abduction is playing on my mind, and I also know how irrational this worry is, but I can't stop worrying. Whenever DH takes her out, I panic that they won't come back. I won't let friends take her out in case they don't watch her like a hawk! I just make excuses but really I don't trust them...
If she is playing in the back garden, I need to be out there with her in case she gets taken. I feel like I'm going nuts. Please help.
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Obsessively worried about DD
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RedFraggle · 08/07/2007 11:00
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