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just need to get it all out i think

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sweetmonkey · 30/01/2007 10:06

i came on here a few years ago when i was having trouble with my alcoholic abusive mum.

i dont have any children but sometimes post on here as i found people have been so nice and caring after problems ive had.

i know to most people what i have going on is trivial but i feel like im cracking up at the moment.

its coming up to a year on friday that my dog died. he was my best friend and was there through me growing up, parents divorce, aloholic mum etc. i miss him terribly

my mum has been in and out of hospital due to drink and doesnt have long left to live and i have found out that my cousin has basically blackmailed my mum into giving her 15 grand so my mum can live with them (my cousin and her fiance were buying a new house)because she knew my mum wouldnt want to go back to livin in a bedsit and they have told her they will pay her back in to years. knowing full well she wont be here.

my cousins fiance has tried it on with me a couple of times and even though i told him nothing would happen and nothing ever did (i would not do that to her and also there is nothing remotely attractive about him) but during an argument over my mum my cousin said some spiteful things and i told her about her bloke. she said why would he pick me over her and then when i told her things he had said she has since gone v quiet.

work is just a mess. they sacked my friend who worked here last week and so i am now trying to find a new job in case they do the same to me. i used to talk to her about everything and now i just feel so down.

i work on an industrial estate and for a year there has been a guy that works opposite that i fancy like mad. we always chat and he asks how i am and remembers things ive told him etc etc. basically he has always acted like he is interested . before christmas he gave me a card and a box of chocs and then on the last day gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek. when i saw him last night after work he asked if i was ok as i had seemed down earlier on yest.. i found out today he has a girlfriend.

i know these things are so silly and there are worse things in the world happening to people. but i just feel like crying and like i cant cope anymore

sorry this is so long. i realise how childish i sound

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Tortington · 30/01/2007 10:10

job, personal life - even your dog.

things are so much easier if at least One section of your life is going ok, it seems easier to deal with personal issues when work is ok and work issues when home is ok.

so understand completely.

understand too about your dog, much underestimated even to ones self in the emotion stakes.

i think a new job is in order. a new social circle will arise from work, new friends and collegues.

it will take some time.

hope you feel better soon

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sweetmonkey · 30/01/2007 10:26

thanks. i think it is just a case of everything happening at once and ive always been brought up to be strong and stuff and now ive realised i cant pretend like nothings happening the whole time and i need to let my guard down so to speak

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Tortington · 30/01/2007 10:28

i think its better to be actively constructive. so actively look for a job. use the internet, local papers, shop windows etc.

ive been looking for ages, sometimes gets me down but plod onwards i say!

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sweetmonkey · 30/01/2007 10:32

yeah i am looking. am with an agency and have been looking online and in local paper of an evening.

things like this wouldnt usually phase me. just feel drained.

thank you for being so kind, it actually feels like someone cares
x

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Tortington · 30/01/2007 10:56

your welcome sweetie. xxx

if you need any help with job apps or anything just give me a shout

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nh101 · 30/01/2007 11:34

It sounds like you may be depressed. Go to your GP and don't let him/her fob you off. Or ring the Samaritans. Do you drink or take drugs? I was depressed a few years ago and at the time I was drinking too much and taking recreational drugs (ecstacy, amphetamine etc) but I was convinced I could handle what I was drinking/taking and didn't realise that they were making me feel worse not better. Hope things look up for you soon x

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sweetmonkey · 30/01/2007 11:37

hi no i dont do drugs, never have done and i rarely drink as my mum is an alcoholic so it has put me off drinking tbh

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