Dont know whether this justifies being in this section, but I cant stop crying today.

[tiredemma]

Feel utterly utterly crap, cannot stop crying.

I feel so stressed out from uni, im aware that im neglecting my role as a mother mother and more at home due to studying and working part time. I felt like crap all day and to top it all off, my first piece of assignment for UNi, was, in theory crap. I managed 45% which makes me think what is the point?
I have literally ignored my dp for weeks due to revision, let my son down last week as I couldnt take him swimming beacuse I was studying. I feel like leaving the course. really i do.

I dont expect any replies, just want to offload, because im putting on front to everyone in RL that everything is hunky dorey, but its not.

[Kiff]

Aww, sweetheart! {{{{hugs}}}}}}

don't know what course you're doing - but uni marks can often seem low, esp compared to school. Doesn't mean 'its crap'.

[tiredemma]

thank you.

[ishouldbeironing]

tiredmma who can you discuss your marks with at Uni ??
You need to talk to a tutor in order to find out if your mark is as bad and if so where you went wrong.
In the meantime have a huuuuuuuug

[Kiff]

Do try to make some time for your dp - it'll make you feel better.

As to your ds - you're not neglecting him - you're teaching independence .

[InTheHouse]

No wonder you're crying you must be absolutely knackered. Is there anyone that can help you out a little bit? Take your son swimming or something?
Try to stop feeling guilty...you are beating yourself up! You should be proud about all the things you are managing to do....i cant handle one ds & I'm full time at home at the moment. You shouldn't bother putting on a front either; people generally react really well if you just say you're feelin g abit shit (don't have to go into massive detai) My next door neighbour posted a chocolate bar thorugh my door last week when I starrted crying in front of him on doorstep (all hassled with screaming boy in pram)
Do you enjoy the course?

[lulumama]

oh ,poor you...sometimes it all gets too much and you feel like you are being pulled in every direction and no-one , incluidng yuo, is getting the best of you

so hard to juggle it all......if things are not hunkydory, are there thinggs you can do to address them

more support from DH, family, friends, can you afford an au pair, is there help from uni at all



(((hugs )))

[threelittlesnowdrops]

tiredemma- when does the course finish? Do you like it?

I do know how you feel, am in v similar situation, doing my PGCE part time and working 2 days and feel like am not doing a good job at any of it- work, study, home. Have had loads of stress at work, they are constantly on my back. Could you chat to your GP about your stress, or your tutor?

Oh my first assignment this year got an unsatisfactory, I have to resubmit it tomorrow

You are not alone, and this is sortable. Think it understandable to keep crying tbh, you have a lot to deal with, hope the mire clears soon

(((hug)))

[flimflam]

45% in my day was about a third which is great for a first assignment!!! Pick yourself up and smile (easier said than done, apologies). My first essay I got referred and had to do it again.

I remember the days where I would spend about three mad days completing an essay and when it was finally handed in I'd go home, have a bath and wash my hair and feel feminine again! I think what you are doing is great for you and ultimately this will be great for your family. It is important for children to see their parents involved in study - gets them ready for their own studies and sparks their curiosity. Can only be a good thing.

[tiredemma]

thanks everyone for posting.

I felt so crap today, and still feel a bit teary now. The uni result was just the straw that broke the camels back today, im so tired and craggy that seeing my results so crap in black and white just tipped me over the edge slightly.
Ive been aware for the past couple of weeks just how much ive been neglecting my family, I saw my results earlier and just thought "whats the point in this?" if thats all i can muster from working hard.

I love my course - I had fantastic feedback from my placements - they said I will make a fantastic nurse, so it bugs me when academically, I struggle.

In the grand scheme of things its not the end of the world and i suppose i should just get a grip, but I have a wonderful, supportive partner who himself has a stessful job- and i cant give him any of my time. makes me feel so guilty.

My children are my world and it breaks my heart to quite often only see them while they are fast asleep in bed, after i have come home from work or uni.

I knew that i would have to make sacrifices, im sad that it appears that for my dream, my family are also having to make sacrifices. this is what upsets me the most.

[Kiff]

how are you today, tm?

[TheArmadillo]

This is a two part post
have only seen this today but
I am a student and the study/childcare balance is always one that leaves you feeling guilty no matter what you do.

Is this your first year? Cos if so then your marks won't be that high. That is what is expected. The course is to teach you what you need to know and how to acheive those marks.

Have you talked to your tutors? Hve you told them how you think you are doing? Cos for most people, tutors are able to show them how well they are doing compared to how well they think they are doing and help you put your mind at rest. YOu've already said your placements think you are doing well.

The balance between study and spending time with your children is always going to be hard, but there are advantages to it too. YOur children are getting to spend time with others and are building and strengthening their relationships with them. This is not to the detriment of your relationship with them, but as a bonus.

[TheArmadillo]

I was ill at the end of last term and all over the christmas holidays and it has meant that my assignments weren't as good as I could have done. But they were not as bad as I thought they were.

Its hard and I have thought about dropping out many times recently (I did originally drop the course and went back after a 2 yr gap - I wouldn't recommend it). The period after christmas is hard for most students, even those without children.

I really am sorry you are finding it so hard at the moment.