Had DS2 Sept. 3rd. Will wait until 2 months out to take antidepressants I've been given (have been told hormones will be around until then). Went on antidepressants after DS1. This time my Mom, MIL and DH have all bent over backward to help me and I haven't even done a single night shift. I didn't BF either, as knew wouldn't be able to take the heartache and headache that caused last time.
Not BF doesn't make me feel inadequate and I don't regret it. What I do regret and what DOES make me feel inadequate is the way I'm feeling again. Crying as typing. Can't say I love DS2.
Not surprising; really didn't "fall in love" with DS1 until he was about 3 months/4 months. (Has been great with him ever since.) No, I don't love DS2 and I hate that. Feel a sense of duty, yes. Would never get to the point of harming him. Have moments of warmth, definitely. But when people ask "did you ever think you could love something so much?" I hate that question. Duh; I loved DH that much before we had children, and remain as in love with him. But a newborn? I don't even know him yet.
Feel I need to talk to someone who's been here before. I know it's only a matter of time again, and I'll feel fine. Today has just been a hard one.
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Having a really hard day today.
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Marls001 · 23/09/2006 20:49
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