I've had depression and anxiety on and off for years. I'm currently taking Sertraline which is helping a little with the anxiety. However, recently things have been very stressful at work - on my own in the office for 2 weeks, for 4 weeks before that doing the job of a colleague that I knew nothing about as well as my own job..
I've had 2 weeks holiday, but don't feel capable of going back to work, I can't sleep and worry about my work and my performance all the time.
Dh is out of work and, apart from working for 2 months earlier this year he has been out of work since last June. Financially we have hit rock bottom - he receives no JSA due to my earnings (I work 23 hours and get slightly more than minimum wage!). We have debt from previous periods of unemployment (dh has been made redundant 5 times in the past 13 years) and bad credit rating due to defaulting on debt payments since dh lost his job.
My gp has given me a sick note for 2 weeks, but at the moment I don't feel like I'll ever have the confidence to go back. I've lost all my confidence - well I didn't really have any in the first place (maybe due to years of my father putting me down all the time?).
How do I pick myself back up and earn some money? My dad is right in a way; I wasted my school years, have few qualifications, all I can do is type, but the jobs pay so little these days. At the moment I work for an estate agent and I feel I will never be good at the job. I'm good with the customers, but feel like I'll never get to grips with dealing with solicitors etc plus the whole legal implications of Misdescription and what we're actually allowed to say. I'd rather have a job where I sit quietly and type, I know I can do that!
Even if I could afford to retrain I don't know what I could do, I can't go into child minding as we have a dog that is scared of small children and may snap plus I suffer with a phobia of vomiting, which would add to the general anxiety.
I feel like everything is hopeless. We can't sell the house because we wouldn't be able to rent due to low income, poor credit rating and our pets. The mortgage company are on our case all the time, asking us to make a payment, but we can't afford to.
Sorry for this long post. Thanks for reading if you got this far!
I don't even know what I'm hoping for by posting this. I just don't know how to continue.
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