I've never actually posted in a forum before - so please be gentle with me lol!
Ive had a history of depression and anxiety for a while now but was managing well on Fluoxetine anti d's until I had my DS 14 months ago. I had to come off the meds during pregnancy but went back onto them afterwards and I'm on 20 mgs. Since ive had DS I haven't felt right, not even being back on the meds or having cognitive behaviour therapy has seemd to help but surely after all of that I can't still be depressed?! I never feel any joy, in fact life just feels like a chore. I feel tired all the time and never look forwards to anything as its such an effort. I start things I used to enjoy like reading, drawing etc and end up losing interest and giving up then feel down about doing so. Ive had blood tests and they have all come fine so theres nothing medically wrong but im worried about increasing my meds,l as I dont want to feel out of control of my feelings or "drugged up" for want of a better description. I do have a DH who is brilliant with our son but is quite open about the fact he doesn't understand how I feel. I've been to the docs so many times im starting to worry they think im a hypercondriact (sp?) I just want to enjoy life again... and I don't know how too. I'm tired of feeling tired and sad and at times quite lonely. I also get quite overwhelmed with bringing up my little boy and the future and get quite anxious about that - am I doing it "right" can he detect how I feel etc etc im not really sure what im looking for here, I guess just to write down how I feel instead of it churning up inside of me all the time
if you have managed to read this far I thank you! x
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surely I can't still be depressed?
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Apricot2013 · 15/08/2014 15:17
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