How to even get through the day, when the pain is just unbearable?

[inabranstonpickle]

I definitely need suggestions as right now I am just so, so unhappy.

That doesn't help I know. I'll try to explain. I have no history of mental illness but ever since losing my dad, two and a half months ago, I have struggled. I really had a strong urge to give up and end it all and then I did start to feel better. But now I am back to square one today.

I can't see anything good or positive in my life at all: I know this isn't true but I feel so impossibly lonely. My friends are lovely but no one knows how I'm feeling.

[Mini05]

Hi

Sounds like your depressed, how about you go to the gp and explain how you feel.
Perhaps you need to talk to somebody about how your feeling, do you have a Mind centre near you? Or perhaps a bereavement charity who have talking therapy.

[inabranstonpickle]

Thanks, but I obviously can't get to the GP today, I don't want to take meds anyway. Thanks. Sorry shouldn't have posted really I just don't know what to do.

[Mini05]

Oh course you should of posted!! Everybody needs help even if it's from a stranger in fact it's sometimes easier to talk to a stranger.

You don't have to go on meds, they will refer you to talking therapy.
Is there a reason you don't won't meds? Scared?

[Queenofknickers]

I'm sorry to hear you feel so bad. It might be worth calling Cruise, the bereavement people, I think they have a helpline and they are brilliant.

[inabranstonpickle]

Hi, I don't want meds because - not sure really.
Side effects and also I don't want to medicate my feelings.

Talking therapy hasn't worked before thank you though

[Mini05]

I hate the thought of meds too! I have to be really in pain even before Trake a paracetamol.
But 18mths ago I was very poorly with very high anxiety which led to depression. I have MH team introvention and psych, I was scared stiff!!!
I won't go into it to much but with meds and time I'm in a much better place and glad I took them(wow can't believe I just typed that)

You won't get better on your own, you need help it will just escalate OP.

When you say ri didn't help or enviously, did you open up? If not it won't work you have to say it as it is.

[LardyMa]

Darling I felt like that a couple of years ago. It got better. Life eaed. I couldn't see it at the time. Hold on. Take care. Can you do just one thing just for you. Xxxx y

[LardyMa]

Life eased. Xxxxx

[inabranstonpickle]

You're right, it won't work.

Thanks. Days over.

[Singsongmama]

4 months for pnd sounds about right silly - it can creep up on you.

How are you feeling today OP?

[inabranstonpickle]

Not great! Thanks for asking :)