Feeling really really low, don't know what to do.

[Feelingpants]

Sat here feeling really pants, the kids are outside playing and they have just had their tea, so they are happy.

I feel really really low, i've just started on 100mg sertraline, been taking them a week, I'm fat, feel really ugly, i've got an injury at the minute and can't do much, so the living room is looking a mess (i've managed to get the kitchen something like and done the laundry, but I'm suffering now).

Dh is worse than useless, he is really bugging me at the minute, he has also taking to slating my mates off one by one. I lent my mate some money yesterday to get her out of a pickle (£20.00) and I KNOW I will get it back, he asked me earlier to ask her to pick dd2 up to save me any more pain, when I said she can't she's gone out to the pub for a few hours, he went off on one, saying how I shouldn't lend her money so she can go out, when we can't.

He seems to forget that he went out on tuesday night and got lashed and peed on the new sofa. When my mate offered to looked after the kids for us so that we could go out for a change, he wasn't interested. Makes me wonder whether he is jealous of her, she has babysitters coming out of her ears and manages to go out at least once or twice a week (she is a single mum).

I cannot be bothered to do anything, bath, dress up nice casual clothes, i'm just sat in scruffy tracksuit (did get changed to pick kids up though) I'm in need of a good face pack, but cannot be bothered, dh is due home soon and I dread to think what kind of mood he will be in, I know he will go off on one if one of the kids comes out of their rooms to say 'hello daddy'.

I could really do with a glass of wine, but we don't have any in.

Ho hum, any advice anyone?

[janenevie]

hey

Tell dh what you expect of himand how u feel but nicely i just did and was pleasantly suprised!
also antidepressants rake 2-3weeks to take effect so give them a week n im sure thatll help!
As 4 being fat n ulgy we all feel like that at times

[noonar]

I know so many parents-including myself, who have experienced depression. no real advice other than obvious stuff like seeing a councellor,which helped me, btw, but wanted to say 'hi'.you are not alone. take care.

[Feelingpants]

I do try and tell him, but he has often said, he doesn't understand it as he has never had to deal with it before, (he doesn't know anyone else who has suffered it)

[divastrop]

i think that when the ad's start kicking in and u start feeling more positive it'll give u the push to start sorting out the things in ur life that need sorting,ie giving ur dh a kick up the arse etc!does he want to understand what ur going through?if so maybe u could get him some reading material so he has some background info on depression.
im sure u will start feeling better soon,i have been as low as ur feeling and i know how hopeless everything can seem.the light at the end of the tunnel may not be visible to you yet but it is there,believe me.