Been refused AD's

[PeachyClairHasBadHair]

Saw GO today, immeidately burst into tears as I am as ever exhausted. He won't prescribe AD's as my feelings are totally natural given Sam and his problems, but will reconsider after counselling.

Ah, Counselling. 5 miles away, I'll likely be stuck on the bus, maybe not ahve childcare and have to fit it in around Uni. Thansk for the additional stress then

feeling really low, DH being driven slowly mad by my general alck of enthisiasm and energy, can't sleep.... thanks mr GP

[Dior]

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[PeachyClairHasBadHair]

San has high functioning autism Dior, and is at time squite violent (we thought he broke my thumb yesterday, by some miracle he hadn't it's just bruised). We live away from family (no Uni near family home twon) and there isn't anyone who cn help, because the local social servcies don't take HFA kids on to their books. Dh works nights, so i don't get to sleep much.

As far as I can see it's an ongoing situation that no-one can help change, bar social services who won't help.

[Dior]

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[PeachyClairHasBadHair]

that's it really

seemed more interestted in my uni grades than how i felt

[unicorn]

poor you - sounds like gp may be anti ad or something. Can you try a different gp?

[grannygrunt]

Your feelings might be "natural" but that doesn't mean you don't need help. Every depressed person's feelings are "natural" (for a depressed person). (I speak from experience - mine and my daughter's) Go back to your GP or to another GP in the surgery or to the nurse practitioner and demand help.

[Dior]

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[PeachyClairHasBadHair]

Dh is absolutely certain I need some AD's, and was very annoyed. I do think the counselling is a good idea- there has been a lot over the past few years to come to terms with, after all. I'm wondering if the Uni GP would be a better bet, apaprently I am entitled?

[sallyrosie]

You might be depressed in which case the ads might work. Or you might be feeling how anyone else would feel in your situation - exhausted, stressed, run down...Ask yourself if you'd be OK if you could just have a long sleep and a bit of a break - if so, probably not depressed?
Perhaps your GP is right and someone to talk things over with would be a better place to start? If it really isn't possible - GO BACK - the only way your GP can know that things are still tough for you is if you go and tell them, otherwise they think you're doing ok.
How old is Sam? Can you get any childcare support through uni? Is there a student union counsellor you could talk to? Or register with the uni practice in case they have a counsellor? A hardship fund to help you pay for some respite?
Thinking of you.

[sallyrosie]

p.s do you think DH wants you to have ads because he's keen for a 'quick cure' to the problem?

[PeachyClairHasBadHair]

No, Dh has had very severe depression himself and really just wants to spare me the lows he ahs experienced.

We're not allowed to use childcare, Social Services banned us because Sam is too unpredictable but we don't qualify for their respite.

I think some sleep wuld help a little, but A) it's not going to happen, and B} I've been very low for a while just covering it up- I had a bout of agoraphobia about a year ago which I managed (or rather had to) deal with myself.

I'm also wary that six weeks counselling (what they provide free)is going to cause more problems than anything- I had a shite childhood that I have dealt with i believe but really don't want to rake up all over agin, along with some other stuff too.

If I could have directional counselling to help me accept Sam's diagnosis that'd be great, mind you. I am well aware that on one level I 'know' his dx is correct; on all other I am constantly looking for signs it is wrong / feeling like a fraud every time he behaves atypically