I'm 38 and a year ago i was told that i was menopausal, or perimenopausal. I had suspected this for a couple of years before but really didn't want to believe it. Most women don't go through menopause before age 45, certainly not before 40. I'm still having periods but they are irregular and light and only lasting 2 days. I have 3 healthy children with a previous partner but none with my husband. He is much younger than me and has no kids of his own. I had imagined us having a child and we have been trying for 18 months. I so wanted to give him a child. I'm worried that one day he will leave me for a woman who is fertile. This thought does my head in and i get very anxious and stressed. I just feel so tired and down every day at the thought of never being able to have another child. I hate seeing pregnant women and babies and dread going out anywhere these days as these sights are everywhere. I just want one more baby! I want this pain and longing to just go away. I keep thinking i should go on anti-depressants again, i have taken them on and off over the years. But the thing is, the only thing that's depressing me is that i am going through menopause early. I didn't expect this and don't know how to handle it. This longing to hold a baby again is driving me to despair. How can i move on and get over this ?
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How can i learn to accept i will never have another baby ?
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erilou38 · 12/01/2014 00:43
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