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Relapsing/Bad days

(3 Posts)
DoYouLikeMyBaubles Tue 07-Jan-14 14:07:47

I've got a long history of bi-polar and depression, of which I'm medicated for and everything was going swimmingly. I've got a lovely little life, and I'm really happy.. until yesterday.

I woke up and instantly something wasn't right. I felt absolutely shattered and really really grim. I rang up work and said I'd be a bit late. I finally got up and ended up sat on the floor crying, then screaming, shaking.. I just didn't know what was going on in my head it was horrendous. I managed to get myself to work but only lasted 2 hours; just kept bursting into tears. Friend brought me home and I got on the sofa in my pjs. I just felt this massive feeling of despair for no reason.

This morning I feel slightly better, and able to talk about it and not cry, but still the dark cloud is there, I can feel it.

Have any of you ever done this, just had this really bad day? Do you often relapse and what do you do to combat it? I'm terrified it'll happen again. And I feel sorry for my DP because he just doesn't understand it at all, he thinks he's done something wrong to make me feel upset.

NanaNina Wed 08-Jan-14 00:32:41

Sorry I don't know much about bi-polar (I have intermittent depression) so am used to waking up and feeling shite for no particular reason. Sometimes I have several bad days in a row, or part of days, there is no knowing really. You ask about relapse and how to combat it - well I can't combat it, so I just have to deal with it. I am fortunate that I am retired so don't have the worry of work. I stay in bed late and sometimes have a good sob (which often helps) and then try to read or watch TV or something mindless and make sure no one sees me other than my DP as I hate anyone seeing me when I am not "me" and it mercifully passes.

It sounds though like you haven't had any kind of fluctuation in your depression which I think is unusual. If this is the case I can understand how bad you must be feeling. How long have you been ill and on meds (you mention a long history) Has anything changed in your meds dose or anything else?

I can't be much more help other than to say again that fluctuations are very common in depressive illness. Maybe if the low mood persists you need to see the GP or psychiatrist again to review your meds.

DoYouLikeMyBaubles Sat 11-Jan-14 14:29:57

I've been on meds since I was 17, so 8 years. It has fluctuated over the years but these past two years I've been fine and have never ever had such a breakdown like I did it was horrible.

I've been to the doctors since and they've changed my meds, they said it often happens that meds stop working and need to be changed. I think I feel worse because I know I'm letting sick people down when I can't go into work. It plays on my mind all day.

Thankyou for replying to me, and I'm sorry you have to go through bad days too thanks

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