How do you go about making serious decisions? Toss a coin, roll a dice, rational/emotional, make a list (but then how do you decide which points carry more weight?) or what? My thoughts keep running in circles, I know I need to make a decision soon, but I'm getting nowhere except constantly thinking about it.
I need to decide, whilst I'm not feeling suicidal, if killing myself would be the best thing for my family. Obviously, as there is such a stigma attached to it, it would be better if it could be passed off as an accident. I'm pretty sure I have that covered, albeit a stupid accident. I know it would be better for my children if I am not an influence in their lives, and the oldest is getting to an age where I would be remembered so it would be better to do it within the next few months. My DH would then be free to find someone he deserves and who could take care of the children far better than I ever could. Rationally, the answer is clear, but then the selfish, cowardly side kicks in. I don't want to leave my children even though I know it would be the best thing for them. I should have done it a long time ago. I can't think of a single other reason against it apart from my selfishness. But if I were to leave them a letter to be opened "in the event of my death" would it look too suspicious? I need to make a final decision and sort all the details out so when I do get suicidal again I know exactly what to do.
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Khimaira · 18/12/2013 22:30
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