My children are 2.5 years and 4 months old and I am on my own with them most of the time due to my partners job, he works abroad for 2-3 weeks at a time. This situation is not going to change under any circumstances. I suffer from bad anxiety at times but only a handful of people close to me know this. I have had many types of drugs and talking therapies over the years which have not really helped.
Basically I am very stressed a great deal of the time. I was very poorly parented myself and have no support. I adore my children but the older one is going through a difficult phase-no doubt normal for his age- and I reay struggling to cope. Everything is a battle against the backdrop of the baby screaming for me and no matter how much i try to remain calm I am not patient enough, have regularly screamed at him and broken down in tears in front of him and I don't think this is right, I am ashamed as this is nothing like the kind of parent I want to be and not helping his behaviour. I am starting to hate myself.
I really, really, really do not want to discuss this with my gp. I just need to know that I am not a bad person who is damaging my kids and where do I turn and deal with the shame of admitting I am finding the stress of dealing with stuff alone unbearable whilst being patronised by some hcp who has never been in my shoes.
I need to be able to cope better as my head is done im and I have daily migraines and chronic insomnia due to how stressed I feel. I feel like a shit mother and person and that my kids deserve better.
Sorry if this is unreasonable but I don't want to go to the dr about this I just need to know that I'm not as alone as I feel.
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Mental health
Very very down and struggling to cope on my own with 2 small dcs
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mrsibley · 30/06/2013 21:45
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