Do you remember Titanic, the film? Remeber the band playing. They started off playing cheerful music to keep everyone calm. Slowly, people began to panic anyway. Yet still, they played on. Until, in the end, they realised no one was listening. Everyone was darting around, scrambling to take care of themselves. Then the rest of the band left.
Yet the violinist stood their and began to play a fairly sombre tune. Still no one heard it, but he played anyway. While everyone else screamed and flailed with everything they had, batting others out of the way, he just stood there and waited for the inevitable end to come.
That's kind of how I feel. Everyone scrambles around shouting and bashing each other, and I just stand there. And surely they can hear that mournful tune, but no one stops to listen. No one has ever stopped to listen.
Normally, I can play that cheerful tune for their benefit. But not always. You can't really give me any advice, because it won't change anything. Tonight, no one will care. Tomorrow, no one will care. Neither will they the day after. So, in the end, I'll just sit here at this desk and pull tears back into my eyeballs before they get out, just in the offchance that anyone would look anyway, and pretend that it's not an effort to get up every day and continue with life.
If you stopped to listen, even for a moment, thanks.
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OliQKair · 08/05/2013 11:17
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