Going to drs tomorrow. Will be first time on ads

[Jezabelle]

It hasn't been long, but I have realised that I am depressed. It was only about a month ago that I started to have my suspicions! I can be very short tempered with my lovely DDs. They don't deserve it. I was feeling low at times and haven't wanted to do much. I've been tearful on and off and over the past few days I've just wanted to cry all the time.

Was at work today and felt not too bad whilst there. Had to put a front on. But I cried loads in the car on the way to and from work. Picked up DDs from childcare and was inpatient and snappy with them.

My youngest is 4. My moods are definitely rubbing off on her. She is wingey and clingy at the moment which isn't like her. I am finding it difficult to be around her because of the demanding behaviour but also feel guilty as I know she is like that because of me.

My DH is very supportive, (he has gone through depression in the past). He can see I am ill and has encouraged me to go to docs for drugs. I have seen the doc several times already and she has said she will prescribe me ads. We agreed that I would try to sort it out myself first, (more exercise, keeping a diary etc). I have not been motivated enough to exercise and although I am constantly preoccupied with how I'm feeling and have talked to DH at length.

I have seen a councillor at my surgery who has put me onto a 6 week course to receive therapy. Can't actually remember what the therapy was called, something which has 3 initials!

Just posting for a bit of support really. All a bit new and scarey to me. I have had low periods at times in my life (eg when my mum died, times of desperate financial difficulties etc) but never thought I was depressed and considered ads.

[TheSilveryPussycat]

CBT? This addresses changing your thought patterns.

Don't be scared of the ADs (though it is normal to be a bit unsure!) Give them a chance - they'll likely take 2-3 weeks to kick in. And well done for seeking help from doc. And you've got a supportive DH! The signs are all good...

[Jezabelle]

Thanks pussycat. 20g of fluoxetine. Just want the DDs to get mummy back. They're too little to understand.

[TheSilveryPussycat]

I sometimes had to tell my LOs that Mummy was a bit sad atm but would cheer up soon. They are now healthy and happy young adults despite all!!