Impulsive behaviour and intrusive thoughts.

[sundaymondaytuesday]

I am under a lot of stress at the moment. Marriage falling apart, financial difficulties, terminally ill parent, young children etc.

My pulse is constantly racing, I'm binge eating and making myself sick and thinking about random people.

If I slow down I'm worried that I will stop. Keeping myself busy but the downside is feeling like I'm somebody I don't recognise.

Is this a normal reaction to stress?

[GooseyLoosey]

Yes it sounds like a normal reaction to stress but one that I think you need help with. Have been there with the eating and intrusive thoughts. You really should go and see a Dr, they will not think you are wasting their time and the right ADs can actually really help.

[sundaymondaytuesday]

Thank you.

[TheSilveryPussycat]

It is a reaction to stress and I agree with Goosey - in the past I have tended to go into overdrive and not eat and not sleep, and did need psychiatric intervention to bring me down again. I too worried that if I slowed down I would stop, or rather that if I stopped I wouldn't be able to get started again.

Can you add a walk somewhere nice into your schedule? But do see GP as well.

[sundaymondaytuesday]

I walk quite a lot but I'm never on my own. I feel that if I had some time on my own I would feel the benefit.

I feel that I'm consciously making myself go into overdrive because I don't fancy the alternative.

When I gorged on chocolate today it was partly to punish myself and partly because I had stopped for a second and needed to do something quickly.

I have spent the last few years waiting for "something". I don't know what that something is. I want to get on with my life, I wish I could leave dh and start a new life with my children.

[TheSilveryPussycat]

First time it happened to me - marital and financial difficulties, 2nd time - caring for MIL who had moved to be near us, marital difficulties, 3rd time last July - stress of Sept 2011 onwards when I filed for divorce from my emotionally abusive cocklodger, absolute (in the Feb) and reaching settlement (June).

Prior to that I was depressed much of the time. Since I filed for divorce that Sept, the depression lifted. Do you want to say anything regarding that part of your life?

warm wishes xxx

[sundaymondaytuesday]

Thanks. I don't know what to say really. Things haven't been working for ages with dh. If I stay with him life will always be tough. Dh doesn't have any vision whatsoever. In the past I have suggested changes that will make life easier for everyone but he prefers to bury his hand in the sand.

I came to the realisation this week that even if we were to win the lottery and our money issues were alleviated it still wouldn't change the way I feel. I don't love him anymore. Years of compromising and ignoring his bad moods have destroyed the love and respect that I once had for him. I feel nothing for him.

[TheSilveryPussycat]

Sounds a bit like my Ex . In the end I realised that although not violent (he was too passive for that anyway) he was emotionally, verbally and financially abusive.

I found help on an earlier version of this thread and have been posting on it ever since. Why not have a look at the top post which has lots of links and see if any of it fits? If so, you can get lots of support on that thread from people at various stages on the road to freedom.