I have struggled with mental health issues, depression and anxiety since my early teens. I'm now 36. Lately I feel like I've gone downhill further and further. I think I am having a breakdown. This is how I am feeling:
Feeling that nobody likes me. Dwelling on old things that happened years ago and feeling like a total victim and unable to cope with any rejection or upset.
Total up and down mood swings. Mainly down at the moment. I also can't make any decisions such as what to have for tea and get upset even trying to make any.
Unable to do basic tasks; unloading the dishwasher feels like a major task to me, and sometimes I just cannot seem to get myself to do simple things.
Lack of interest in how I look. I've always taken a pride in how I look but am not washing my hair very much and am just pulling on the same pair of jeans day after day with an unironed top from the laundry pile. I've always worn make up but can't bring myself to put any on at the moment. It feels like hard work.
A sort of numbness. I don't cry very much. I just feel like I'm existing.
I can't seem to sleep and when I do it's disturbed.
Sorry this seems to methodical and list-like. I've even found it hard to type this post, everything is overwhelming.
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Am I having a breakdown?
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Mycatlovesme · 12/02/2013 23:22
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