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Just started on Citalopram

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Nanabana Wed 30-Jan-13 15:55:25

Have read old threads about side affects and quite worrying, but will give it a go. Hope it kicks in soon

Hi Ally, like you I had really bad nausea when I started on Fluoxetine and after about 9 horrible days rang GP who suggested going down to 10mg (liquid form) which I did for a week - made a big difference in 3-4 days and then I very gradually increased the dose back up to 20mg. Since then I've gone up to 40mg (no gradual increase) and had just one day mild nausea. Anyhow something worth talking to GP about.

jklm The getting out of bed thing is one of the biggest challenges ime! If you do manage to get up do you find you can get going? I really struggled to get up this morning, but cup of tea from DH and forced myself to get out of bed by a certain time, and once I had eaten, had shower I felt less lethargic, but I've been on ADs for a couple of months now - did have 4 days at beginning when I simply couldn't move out of bed at all and couple of weeks just sitting on sofa watching tv. Maybe it's worth speaking to GP about extending your sick note til you've adjusted to them a bit more?

Like Bunny, I would also say to everyone, hang in there, the drugs do help, they gradually start to take the edge off and I'm also now able to start counteracting all the negative thoughts. Still quite tired - I have a nap after lunch most days, but am functioning better than I did a couple of months ago, even managed to join some other school mums at a playground this week, something I couldn't have done before (even if it was warm enough) as just could not interact with anyone.

take care everyone x

Bunnygotwhacked Fri 12-Apr-13 14:51:11

Hey all it's been quite a while since my last post have scanned through the last few am sorry your having an awful time ally. Hang in there Mechanical your still sounding more positive then when we last spoke so thats definately a good thing.
Well we are down south now and I made the journey I didnt take the diazapam after all that fuss hehe but knowing that i had it helped I also think the change of area along with the pills kicking in finally are helping me to feel almost normal I've been out severeal times now but not on public transport yet that is another big thing for me.
What I'm trying to say is I do feel much better on the pills now my dose has been upped I'm not completely normal but I am not nearly so anxious now. I can feel my head thinking all these bad thoughts but the rest of me is telling it to fuck off. So for those who started taking it after me there is a light and these things can work don't be scared about getting a higher dose I found there were no additional or worsening of the side effects. The nausea has gone the lightheadedness has gone no comfortably numbbingness either which is a shame no side effects no other than the jaw clenching which i can live with.

Jklm1968 Fri 12-Apr-13 14:48:55

Hi everyone. On day 10 and cannot shake the lethargy. Need to return to work on Monday and I'm dreading it. Please someone tell me this goes ? I just want to lie in bed and not even sleep, just lie there ! Very distressed. First time on Ad's and so far I hate it. Please let me know if I will get over this. Everyone seems so lovely on here. Thank you.

Jklm1968 Fri 12-Apr-13 14:48:06

Hi everyone. On day 10 and cannot shake the lethargy. Need to return to work on Monday and I'm dreading it. Please someone tell me this goes ? I just want to lie in bed and not even sleep, just lie there ! Very distressed. First time on Ad's and so far I hate it. Please let me know if I will get over this. Everyone seems so lovely on here. Thank you.

Allysunflower Sun 07-Apr-13 22:37:05

Hi all I'm so fed upsad I'm 12 days in and the nausea is not getting any better? I don't know what to think or do, I'm so low and the anxiety been really bad again so on the diazeprams not sure if I'm getting to use to them, do you think by now this nausea should be subsiding? I'm loosing weight and have no energy, can hardly eat anything as its such a horrible feelingsad I see gp Tuesday but I don't hold out much hope, although a locum dr I spoke to last week did mention about maybe a change to escitalopram? fewer side effects and is a ssri, but I see nausea is one of them? god knows how I'm going to be able to carry on like this? anyone any thoughts?
How are you in particular mechanical dreams? I did reply to you huni? got to take my tablets nowsad just dread it allsad x

Allysunflower Sun 07-Apr-13 08:51:17

Hi you sound what I feel and think? I'm not good at all, the nausea is just as bad if not worse, I'm so anxious too, I was hoping that 11 days into this I'd be feeling a bit better but it's not happening and is worse? I'm having to take diazeprams a lot but I seem to have got use to them, not sure I can go on like this much more? I'm struggling to even eat a bit now? this sickness is horrificsad how were you when you started and what dose etc, hugs to you xx

MechanicalTheatre Sat 06-Apr-13 22:22:48

Ally, how you feeling? The nausea will pass, it was awful for me for the first while. Stick with it.

How's the rest of you?

I haven't been around much, I dunno. Half struggling and half fine - maybe I need a higher dose. The split with my bf has revealed how empty my life is. I need more. I dunno. More friends, more hobbies. I feel like I need to do things that terrify me.

Allysunflower Wed 03-Apr-13 12:49:57

I'm struggling so much with the nausea, I'm desperate but nothing seems to be able to be given to me? the anxiety is terrible too I'm now 8 days in to taking it 20mg and feel worse, having to take diazeprams more now, Im so low and can't stop cryingsad please any advice I feel like I really can't go on anymoresad x

citalobrain Wed 03-Apr-13 09:42:43

Hi again Ally smile

I take mine in the evening (around 9 pm) and that seems to work for me, but I know others take them in the morning. If you change the time best to check with your GP about how best to do it.

What really helps is to remember that although it all feels like shit at the moment it really will get better. You have the bumpy settling in period and then things start to even out. It could take a few weeks (I think it took me 2 for the worst of the side effects to go) but you can get through it as long as you remember this is just the drug settling in.

Each time I've gone up in dose I've felt a little jittery and anxious, but not as much as starting for the first time.

My GP gave me propanolol (sp?) to take if I needed it for the physical anxiety symptoms, but I haven't taken any. If yours has prescribed diazepam I would take it as they suggest, if it helps? It's probably just for this first bit. I really don't know much about diazepam at all though!

If you can manage to eat something it will really help with the sick feeling. Even just some cereal, toast, biscuits, soup? Think of something you think you can stomach, it will help with the nausea to eat something.

Hang in there Ally, you're a week in and nearly through the worst bit smile

I better go now. Am out for the rest of the day (something I wouldn't even have considered a few months ago!) but keep posting if you need to and other people may be around in the day.

Take care xx

Allysunflower Tue 02-Apr-13 21:36:28

I forgot to say I'm also taking diazeprams to try to help the anxiety? although I'm trying to manage them but was told it was ok while I was feeling so awful? x

Allysunflower Tue 02-Apr-13 21:25:19

Thank you so much I'd like that, thank you for your words too, it's worrying me feeling worse and it's been a week now on 20mg? but I'm hoping it's the case of feeling worse as it gets in my system and then levels, so hard tho, I'm struggling to eat be ayes of the nausea? Did you take anything for it? and the anxiety is much much worse, I'm taking it at night now as I use to before? But not made any difference yet? I feel so low still so worried about having to increase with feeling like this on this amount? Did you get bad again as you increased? Thank you again I'm in need of some help and support, I'm glad your doing well, tc xx

citalobrain Tue 02-Apr-13 20:49:16

Hi to everyone and to Allysunflower xx

You poor thing, you sound very stressed out, and sick.

I remember my first week on 20 mg of citalopram and I remember feeling nauseous and light headed. I had very little appetite and I definitely didn't feel all there.

I also know that my anxiety got worse at the beginning, before starting to improve. It was really comforting to hear the same happened to other people too. It will get better smile

All i can say is stick with it and hang on in there. The first week or two feels bad, but I promise things will improve.

If you're really struggling, could you perhaps phone your GP and talk about maybe starting at 10 mg and going up in stages? Although if you've been a week on 20 mg, you're almost through the worst bit so I'd be inclined to push on at the 20 mg dose.

This thread has flurries of activity but if you post I'm sure someone will be around at some point who's been where you are and can reassure you x

I'm now over 2 months on citalopram I think. I went progressively from 20, to 30 and now 40.

I can't tell you how much better I'm feeling smile I still have very anxious days, but the good days now far outweigh the bad ones. I'd never have believed it if someone had told me that a few months ago!

I'm off now but will come back tomorrow to see how you're doing, take care of yourself xxx

Allysunflower Tue 02-Apr-13 19:23:26

How's anyone else now since starting up on citalopram? I'm in a bad way, was on this drug before I can't remember feeling this awful tho? it's week one of 20 mg having previously took mirtazapine for 3 months then went back on this as side effects didn't get much better but now I'm awful again, terrible nausea to the point it's getting worse and worse, dr Wont give anything for and psychiatrist not got back to me but when I asked before he said there was nothing? My anxiety has got so much worse too, not sure if it's the anxiety itself or the fact that I'm feeling so sick all the time? I'm barley eating and can't function properly? Please help with any advice I'm so lonelysad x

Hi MT hope you are able to relax a bit at your parents. So pleased to hear you've been feeling OK about your split and its completely brilliant you're trying to reach out to people. Hope you have some good times over the Easter weekend. Take care x

citalobrain Fri 29-Mar-13 17:27:10

Mechanical well done for reaching out to people even when it feels like the last thing you want to do, I know that scenario so well. I hope you have a lovely time back with your folks and get some much deserved and needed rest and TLC xx

Colouring that's great you and your dad managed to talk it through with your DH. I think as long as everything stays out in the open so you can all talk about it then there won't be any shocks or surprises, and you'll therefore be less anxious about it all. Any sort of career change is terrifying. I've been doing the same thing for 10 years and adore it, but when I was with my DP any time he changed jobs I used to get soooo worried, even when he had another job immediately lined up hmm

The last few days have been so much better and I feel much more in control. I've made a few phone calls I've been putting off and generally getting stuff done so I'm feeling good as the weekend approaches smile

Wishing everyone reading and posting on this thread a happy Easter weekend flowers and wishing you all a peaceful and happy time. I'll catch up with you all next week xxx

MechanicalTheatre Fri 29-Mar-13 16:06:08

Hi all, going to my parents for a bit, not ideal but I'm a bit stuck in the middle of nowhere here and everyone has gone home for the holidays.

Feeling ok about the split the last couple of days. At least there's no-one in my life letting me down any more and I'm trying to reach out to people.

Thanks Citalo in the end my wonderful dad who gets on with him v well, raised it (he was v brave!) and DH listened and after dad left we had a bit of a chat about it. He says he is going to test out his ideas over the next few months. I've said he needs to set a testing period and budget and then we will decide whether to continue or not. He says he doesn't think it is the ADs, more the CBT. He says he is a completely different person to how he was last year - and that's true. Another weird thing for me - a very different DH... So its out in the open which I guess is better. Does feel v weird tho!

Sounds like a v gd plan to find slightly smaller lower key choir (which would often be free of charge I think). I joined a choir in Nov and Dec for 2 town carol services and it was great - I always felt better after a good sing.

Fingers crossed you have a sweat-free night!
Take care x

citalobrain Wed 27-Mar-13 21:21:32

Oo Colouring that's a tough one isn't it? Do you think his ideas/plans are at all viable, or too risky? I'd understand you being worried if they did seem risky, or if you thought he wasn't thinking 100% clearly.

Can you talk to him about your worries, about the ADs etc., or would that not go down well? I sympathise, it's not an easy situation. Is there a careers guidance service for adults?? Perhaps he could talk his ideas through with someone like that? Just musing really.

Really great he's done so well coming through his depression though, that's really good news.

Glad to hear you had a good day. I'm finding it a bit of a tightrope at the moment, but I'm certainly having more good days than I was before I first saw the doctor smile

I don't think my mum could help to be honest (re the choir), but you know I could probably stretch to it myself, it's a case of deciding what I want my priorities to be (giving up nicotine gum which I've been chewing for years ages would probably be enough to cover it!!!).

This choir though goes to all sorts of huge events, which would freak me out, and they do an awful lot of extra sessions and workshops outside the once a week time slot, so I don't think this one particular one would be for me. If I can find a smaller, less 'big event' one, that's happy just to meet once a week and have a sing, that would be ideal! I've started the ball rolling so I will get looking smile

Off to bed now as I'm completely knackered, ever hopeful for a sweat-free night!

Take care xxx Hope everyone else is doing okay too x

Ooh citalo forgot to say, re: your choir - I think singing is vvvvv helpful. Any chance your mum could buy you a big birthday pressie of more sessions? Just a thought x

Hi citalo smile at nonplussed friend. It's hard though knowing which thoughts to trust and which to just slap! I completely get what you're saying about having a psychoanalyst in the house - I'm not sure I'd have gone at all if that was the case for me! Really glad you're feeling a bit better today.

I've been OK today, had a very lazy start to the day (breakfast and mnetting in bed til 10.30) then got up and out for a walk in hazy sun, and met my dad for lunch, then all the usual school run stuff.

Had a really good chat with my dad, and he said something which I've been thinking and another good friend said to me on Monday re: my DH. DH is on Sertraline and has recovered v well from depression last summer/autumn with CBT too. To the degree that to me, my friend and my dad he is sooooo happy and chirpy and energetic it doesn't feel quite natural! I am not sure of my own judgement at the moment. But his ideas for career since his redundancy are pretty radical and risky and I do wonder if he really should come off the Sertraline in case they're affecting his mood in the opposite direction?! He's planning to be on it for another six months while he consolidates all the changes from his CBT etc. I find it rather stressful and I think has probably contributed to feeling a bit worse since Sun (he told me Fri night)... ho hum. He is going to test his ideas out etc so hopefully it will all come good, but more uncertainty, unpredictability etc is hard for me at the mo. So there we go, today's saga!

Hope everyone else's afternoons have been OK and you've had a bit of sunshine too. Take care x

citalobrain Wed 27-Mar-13 17:47:47

Hello to everyone

Mechanical I'm really sorry to hear things are so tough for you at the moment. Life really can put us through the wringer can't it? Is there anyone who you can talk things through with? Keep posting here though as I'm sure it helps. Sending hugs and hoping you are feeling a wee bit better today x

ColouringIn how are you today? Thank you again to you and CremeEgg yesterday for your kind words, they really helped.

Very interesting what you said actually, as I had e-mailed my friend and apologised for being all over the place / bit mad etc. and I got a nonplussed e-mail back from her (lots of what?! from her). So you may be right that it was mostly in my head. What doesn't help is her very lovely DP is training to be a psychoanalyst and I always feel under scrutiny, even if he isn't scrutinising (although he would probably have a field day if he chose to!)

I'm feeling much better today. Any other night-sweaters out there, I feel your pain, it is awful sad

I managed to make it to this choir thing last night and actually enjoyed it shock My mum was bellowing away next to me completely out of tune and kept blaming it on me grin Not sure I can manage it financially as it costs a fair bit but I'm thinking it over.

Hello to everyone else who's reading. Hope you are all doing okay and keep posting if you need to x

I'll be back tomorrow smile

Hi MT was wondering how you're doing - so sad to hear not good. Splitting up with a long term partner is hard when you're well and just awful when you're not. Sending {{hugs}} and hoping you can find a way to be kind to yourself tonight - anything at all you can do to distract yourself, or if its simply sleeping that's OK too. Take care x
Citalo {{hugs}} you sound really low today. I completely get what you say about not knowing who you are and not feeling likeable. I have to keep telling myself that its the depression causing these thoughts and I will not always feel like this, but some nights - like tonight - it can feel like such a slog. Feel free to get stuff off your chest - like you I find these threads so helpful. Hope you get some sleep, take care x

MechanicalTheatre Tue 26-Mar-13 17:18:16

Bad day. Split with partner not going well (we were still talking til yesterday and I thought maybe we'd get back together) but today it just seems hopeless. Lying in bed, hiding from everyone, ear plugs in.

No appetite at all. Forced down some chips before. Everyone is going out tonight to celebrate end of term.

citalobrain Tue 26-Mar-13 15:47:28

Cremeegg and ColouringIn thank you xx

I felt like I lost it this weekend sad I went up a dose on Tuesday last week so that probably contributed, but I felt like the thin veneer I'd built up all fell apart.

I feel better now, but start to really get anxious if I look at myself too closely. Am I just a big fake as I'm constantly putting on a front with other people to hide how I really feel? Am I essentially dishonest as I do make up excuses for things, frequently?

I don't know who I am any more. And if I am the person who I'm starting to worry I am, I wouldn't want to be my friend. I just feel very lost.

Sorry, what a pity post!

I have something I have to go to tonight, which I really can't get out of as they had to juggle things around to fit me in. It's a choir 'taster session' organised in a fit of positivity. I will go as they have made an effort on my behalf, but my first thought this morning was pretend you're ill and can't make it. So more dishonesty, almost without thinking twice about it. I'm also going with Mum so I can't bail on her either.

I'll be back tomorrow and will read through what I missed over the weekend. I can't tell you how grateful I am to have somewhere to post and get this all of my chest. Everyone on this thread is amazing xx

Hugs to you all, be back tomorrow

{{hugs}} Citalo Cremeegg is spot on. A weekend away is challenging at the moment but you did it. And you survived a stressful journey home. Well done. As for the rest of it - as you know deep down we are often not right when we guess what people are thinking of us confused but I completely understand about what you mean about being nervous talking to friends and feeling paranoid. A weekend away can be v stressful at the mo, so hope you can find a way to be kind to yourself.

Is there anything you can do today to distract yourself from your sad thoughts? Favourite tv programme, something nice to eat, good read?

Take care x

and hello everyone x

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