I keep making myself sick after food and I need help stopping.

[MiffySweetLittleBunny]

Am bout 2.5 stone over weight, have been overweight since my first pregnancy 9 years ago and have continued to gain after other pregnancies.

I've tried so hard to diet properly but food is heavily, heavily entwined with my emotions thanks to my upbringing and I struggle so much.

I used to make myself sick, very rarely, in the past, I mean very rarely but i the last few months its gotten bad.

I told my husband on a few occasions and he was supportive and sat with me and talked ... but never mentioned it again. It made me feel stupid because saying it out loud ... well its just a ridiculous thing to do, I'm a smart woman, I know its gross and dangerous.

But now its like his forgotten.

I joined weight watchers and the first week I was ok, but the 2nd week I slipped and whenever I ate something I felt i shouldn't have i felt a failure and knew i was going to bring it up again so ate more?!

I've lost 5.5lbs in 2 weeks

but now i feel like if im full ive ate too much. last night i had chicken, veg and a small amount of mash ... but still threw half of it up even though i kept my portions small.

I'm NOT going to my GP, I don't feel like im in too deep and its a 'problem' yet, im still over 12 stone!!

but i need help / tips in how to combat it before it becomes a proper problem?

Thankyou.

[MumOfMissy]

Didn't want to let this go unanswered. It's very important that you seek help for this problem now before it gets out of control. I know you say you don't want to go to your GP - why? Are they unsympathetic? Perhaps there is another GP you could see instead? I know you are a smart woman and I don't want to project things on you but it sounds like you are in danger of developing an eating disorder. Please go and see your GP ASAP, you may need counselling to help you through this. I don't think your husband is being unsympathetic. It's just that men sometimes think because you're not talking about it that its OK.

It may be that dieting is not something you should to at the moment if you are not in the right head space to do it. Also perhaps there may be an underlying medical reason why you are overweight, so again another reason to speak to a sympathetic doctor. But most im

[MumOfMissy]

...importantly you say you have deep rooted emotional issues, and these can be healed with therapy and talking. Please seek help and tell your husband how u are still feeling x

[Ionasky]

I hated talking to my GP about what's effectively none of their business/don't want to feel judged but MumofMissy is right, you do need some counselling - there isn't a quick fix/tips to it - i only stopped when i understood what was triggering the cycle and you need counselling to understand that - usually it was - have a bad thought about myself, feel bad, binge, feel worse, then purge to get relief. The feeling of failure is another strong signal you need CBT/talk therapy, that's tied into self-esteem directly. There are lots of books about breaking binge cycles & distorted thinking on amazon to support it too, and if you have the means, you can book therapy independently of the GP, 6-8 sessions of therapy can sometimes give you all the tools you need without it having to go on your record.

[Ionasky]

ps i understand about dh forgetting it, he's probably really lost about how to help you - my dh is very understanding but he's action orientated, if he can't find a solution, he finds it very stressful to talk about - i'm sure he's worried about you, if you come up with a plan to take control of it, he'll support you, i'm sure. Good luck!