I have now realised in my 40's that I was sexually abused as a very young child by my father. I have very few memories of childhood and the ones I have are significant but they are not complete memories, they are half memories iykwim. Some (not sexual abuse ones) were drawn out during hynotherapy and later substantiated but I then stopped going and I now know why, I was not ready to deal with them.
My gut instinct is that I am correct about this and have felt much more peaceful after this realisation than I have been in years. I have suffered panic attacks and extreme anxiety for most of my adult life and I tick almost all of the 'childhood sexual abuse checklist' symptoms. Everything makes sense to me now.
I still can't quite believe it though. My father left when I was 6 and idolised him. I am ready for these repressed memories to come back in full so I can deal with them and put them to bed for good but they won't come. I know I can't force them but has anyone experienced similar and can suggest anything to speed this process up? I really need to conclude this and move on!
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Repressed memories of childhood sexual abuse?
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UnderstandItAllNow · 18/01/2013 09:45
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