I have a 4 week old DS (DC1) and I am really struggling. I feel utterly exhausted all of the time and get teary every evening when I think about the nighttime ahead.
I am taking good care of DS and he is in no danger from me of neglect/being hurt but I feel like I wish we had never had him :-( I mean, if I could wave a magic wand right now and never have been pregnant and just have my like back to what it was before, then I would :-(
I feel awful saying this - am I a dreadful mum? Have I got PND or is it relatively normal to feel like this 4 weeks into looking after a newborn? I just had no idea that the sleep deprivation would be so awful.
DS is FF and will sleep from 10pm - 0130/0200 ish before waking up for a bottle, which I realise isn't that bad, but then he is really difficult to settle after this bottle, often staying awake, grunting/grizzling until his breakfast bottle at 6am ish. I am up all night popping his dummy back in, rubbing his tummy, cuddling/swaddling him / nothing seems to work after this night feed.
Perversely he sleeps really well during the day but I don't seem to be able to nap when he's asleep. My brain feels really wired and manic and unable to switch off.
I have never been depressed before but I am having a massive crying fit at least once a day and feel terrified about DH going to work tomorrow.
Is it possible to function on just 3 hours sleep per day? How long can this last for? Do I need to seek professional help or is this just part and parcel of being a new mum? I am just not enjoying this experience at all at the moment :-(
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Have I got PND? Feeling desperate and unsure of everything
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DangerMousey · 06/01/2013 17:09
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