Hello!!
Any advice or perspective welcome, sorry in advance if very boring!!
I am a long term taker of sertraline (or sometimes citalopram) - and I keep going on and off them. Trying to decide what I should do.
I have a long long history of anxiety disorder, social phobia, on and off with obsessive worrying, and a bit of eating disorder thrown in when I was younger. And one episode of full-blown panic disorder
I have weaned myself off the sertraline again (very slowly and carefully) and at the moment I am OK. But it's a constant battle to just feel "OK" - I spend hours at it - do a lot of self-help, mindfulness meditation, yoga, CBT, all the right things, they do help!
But it is a constant battle to feel "normal" or "just below normal" to be fair - and takes hours! - even taking all these positive steps I am just more tired, lethargic, foggy headed, can't concentrate so well, it feels like I am anaemic, even though I know I am not - I need to sleep such a lot too.
...but it's not like I am suicidal or in a terrible state...
....but life is SO MUCH easier when I am taking them. I don't need to constantly battle it, I jsut feel fine, calm, confident, in control, happy - I spend much more time just doing things I enjoy (reading, going out) rather than trying to control my mood...
...is this cheating? it's too easy?
Yesterday I sort of thought "sod it, I'm sick of this" and took one - but OH thinks it's a shame as I have done "so well" not taking them for a good few months. And it's true - in some ways I agree with him.
I know they are not addictive but at the moment that good-mood-feeling and wonderful energy does seem rather addictive - does that make sense?
Thanks for reading, if anyone has managed to get through it all, and sorry for waffling!
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littlenamechangetoday · 12/12/2012 11:50
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