Hello all,
Just joined today, currently 14 weeks pregnant with my first baby. My partner has been pleased with the news from day one, but I feel constantly anxious, crying a lot & generally very down in the dumps :(
Not the way I'd imagined pregnancy at all...I suffered quite badly with morning sickness at the start (has calmed down now thankfully) which made me quite resentful (horrible I know!), but I thought that after my 12-week scan I would feel more bonded and motherly towards the baby.
However this hasn't happened, all I keep thinking is I'm making a huge mistake & that I'm not going to be able to cope...In my darkest moments I wish I'd just had an abortion earlier on. The thing is, although my family & friends have all been lovely, they are constantly telling me to "calm down", otherwise I'll end up with a nervous baby. I'm a bit of a worrier by nature, but people's comments are stressing me out even more, and now I'm worried the baby will pick up on how negative I'm feeling? :/
The other thing is, I've got this overwhelming guilt for feeling this way, I feel so selfish when so many people would love to be in my position, so it's a bit of a vicious cycle. Just want my old life back :(
This is causing so many problems with my partner (I feel I can't confide in friends & family, don't want to worry them & also don't want to let them see I'm not coping), broke down last night & told him everything, but his opinion is along the lines of "there's nothing wrong with you, just think positive & get on with it". This just makes me feel even more isolated as I feel he's not supporting me at all...He just thinks I'm being dramatic & looking for attention.
I'm having quite conflicting feelings in that I feel like I don't care about the baby one minute, but I know deep down I must otherwise I wouldn't worry so much. I know I am very hormonal etc at the moment but really feel I should be a lot happier than this? My sister is pregnant too & can't help but compare myself.
Sorry for the rant guys, thank you for reading x
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Feeling really down, not able to cope & isolated! Also so guilty for feeling this way :( Any advice much appreciated!
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ScrummyMummyToBe · 10/12/2012 01:12
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