NC obviously. Have spent two days trying to compose a message, am shaking as I've never ever admitted to being bulimic but it's growing stronger again.
I've beaten the booze, diagnosed manic depressive and just finished two years of meds and therapy, confronted and dealing with family alcoholic relationships so you'd think I could just admit to one more thing!
But the bulimia is such a dark and shameful secret and I feel such a fraud when people say oh haven't you done well?
I haven't. I'm obsessed with healthy cooking for my family but as soon as we've eaten I stuff my face and disappear off for a 'bath' and throw up.
I am starting to do it in the daytime as well. I hate myself for being so weak and losing evenings with the dcs and DH, throwing up in tnd bathroom for hours when I should be helping with homework, being present.
I know I should talk to my gp but I don't have the same one twice in a row and I am paralysed with shame.
How the hell can I stop? Has anyone else faced this horror down?
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Smiffle · 20/11/2012 10:19
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