Need to do something about my anxiety before it drives me crazy

[AlexAndreN]

I have a whole host of anxiety/depression symptoms and I just can't go on without doing anything about it.

I'm finding it increasingly difficult to get on with things. Twice in the past two weeks I have called in sick at work because I just couldn't face going in. Both times, I've spent the day sat in bed worrying instead. I am losing weight, not eating much but my alcohol intake is increasing quite dramatically. I look haggered. I have no patience with the kids and constantly snap at them or ignore them. I have so much trouble sleeping - sometimes I just lay in bed all night with the same reoccuring thought spinning in my head over and over again. I have terrible mood swings. I have a boyfriend of 4 months who sometimes I love, sometimes I just can't be arsed with him. He's never anything but nice to me yet I constantly think he's going to dump me. I sit there waiting for his texts - if he doesn't text me, I start thinking allsorts and feel depressed. The worst bit is, since I met him I've done so many wonderful things. In the short space of 4 months he's taken me to see numerous bands, comedy acts, festivals, movies, shows, fun/romantic weekends away, he treats me amazingly yet I sit there feeling depressed over the fact that he hasn't shown any interest in marriage. FFS we only met 4 months ago! my rational self tells me that yet I sit there thinking "bastard, why won't you marry me! why am I not good enough for you?" and you don't have to tell me I'm being irrational - deep down, I know!!

I just don't see how I can go on like this. I have shit loads of hours to make up at work now and the very thought of going in on Monday morning makes me feel physically sick. After spending a lovely night and day today with my boyfriend I've come home and want to cry because I won't see him again until Monday - Im going out tonight with a friend and it's not the catching up I'm looking forward to, it's getting drunk.

Is it time for a trip to the docs? if so, what will he do??

[susiedaisy]

Didn't want to read and run, but haven't got alot of advice other than back to gp,
Not doing too good myself this week.

[amillionyears]

Sounds like you should visit the GP.
I presume he would advise ADs?
Have you seen the GP before about any of these symptoms?

[AlexAndreN]

No I've suffered with them for around 2 years (minus the 4 months boyfriend of course) but I've never talked to anyone about it.

[susiedaisy]

I've just been to gp with my low moods and anxiety and have so far found it helpful to talk it over so I would recommend it, I managed to get an emergency app with a gp I know and can relate to which does help.

[susiedaisy]

Bumping for you x

[Bilbobagginstummy]

I found this very good:
www.amazon.co.uk/Mind-Over-Mood-Change-Changing/dp/0898621283?tag=mumsnet&ascsubtag=mnforum-21

I nearly didn't read it after being put off by the over-American introduction, but the material in the chapters was really helpful. I'm not much of a talker to people but found this set out the techniques to use on yourself.

[sausagerolemodel]

Your doc might suggest a combined approach of ADs and CBT. I have had similar symptoms on and off for years. ADs will almost certainly help. My experience was that I felt like my brain was stuck in this depressive/anxious rut, but I began to think that was just "me" and that even if drugs treated it, I would always be anxious underneath. Citralopram or Sertraline are commonly prescribed for anxiety with depression. For me, both worked to help get me out of the rut in the short term, but (100mg) has been life changing for me in terms of getting rid of the anxiety. Don't be afraid to try different ones if you don't feel that the the first option has not helped like you thought they would. Everyone is different. Good luck.

[susiedaisy]

Thanks for link bilbob

Hope op can come back.