Boredom..it's driving me insane... i want the old us back

[Shiraz]

Dp has been severely dumped on from a great height by his (now ex) employers. Ever since Sept he has been pushed out, not paid and we have struggled through with great strength but everything has gone wrong that is possible in that time.

He finally handed in his notice a cpl of weeks ago and is now out of work. Apart from hurting his pride and self esteem it has nearly ruined our relationshipa and family life, and completely wrecked finances, fun and excitement.

We have had no money to do anything other than feed ourselves and put electric in the meter we had to have installed.

My libido has plummeted (not like me as i have a very stable and natural sex drive with dp)..and he has started to comment although i know he understands.

We have two solicitors willing to take on his case for constructive dismissal...we have been 'given' two cars so that we can exit our property and get out to work (as he had a company vehicle). I have some real positive feedback from interviews and job offers for Feb/March starts....but i am just feeling so negative.

Things are looking up..well for my career anyway..but i know he is feeling hurt and left behind (he is 43 where as i am 24). We have been together 6 years and our relationship has really been through the mill.

But i cannot help but being bored, we haven't been out in absolute months, i spend all my time cleaning and looking after dd when i am not working (in a part time xmas temp job i hate).

I know things will get better...but i wake up so positive and then it all turns sour.

I'm finding it hard to cope and i am just craving money, fun and excitment. I really feel for my dp as he is having to put up with me bursting into tears and feelign sorry for myself.

The brunt of it is we booked a holiday to a 5* hotel in Egypt and should be flying out tomorrow..but we lost it due to not being able to pay the £400 balance in October after putting over 1k down on it..(we have never had a holiday together due to both of our careers and dd). We were supposed to be booking our wedding for next year this month too and i was supposed to be starting a degree through the OU last month. So all the crap his ex employers put us through lost us so much! (plus i had a mc in December.... . )

Any words of wisdom or advice to pick me up..i want the old me back, the old us back.

I want drives out into the country and lovey dovey pub lunches, i want to take dd exciting places at the weekend...to have a romantic meal..to be able to go out and buy a new top instead of scraping together for enough petrol to get me to work or an interview..I WANT MY OLD LIFE BACK!!!

More importantly to be happy again and wake up with a smile rather than tears!

Sorry to bang on i needed to let it all out!

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[peppapig2]

Hi..no real advice except have you got anything to sell on ebay/car boot sales etc..as for days out how about walks in parks etc ( all free activities)...hope things pick up

Have you any insurance you can claim back £1000 on?(prob not great idea but worth a try)