this is too much now, I need to do something

[trinityrocks]

I'm sick and tired of the lethargy , the hopeless feeling, being unable to remeber anything, the headaches, wanting to be horizontal and warm ALL THE TIME, feeling pissed off when I have to sort the babies out, feeling guilty at feeling pissed off when I have to sort the babies out
I feel terrible all the time, my house makes me sad because it's in a mess but I can't seem to find the motivation to do anything, then I feel guilty, i feel like I'm drowning in cusatrd and my head just keeps spinning with all the stuff I should be doing and don't do
Sorry for ranting, had anyone got any new or unusual ways to combat this that I might feel motivated to do, I need to find something to help

[collision]

Do you feel like this all the time or is it recent? How old are your children? I was reading an article about SADS and wondered if you were suffering from this or PND.

[madmarchhare]

Ah, bet me to it collision, I was just going to say the same.

Although I have suffered with depression in the past, I know that chances are if I feel crap at this time of year that it will usually pass.

[trinityrocks]

I am on ad's at the moment and think that probably this time of year makes it worse but really this has been going on for on and off 6 years (pnd from my first child)

[collision]

Maybe your dr needs to change your prescription. I think as well that the less you do the less you want to do and it becomes a vicious circle. You need to try and combat your feelings and sort the house out which will make you feel better.

Can you get someone to have the children and sort out a room at a time?

Can your partner help you?

[trinityrocks]

my poor dh is also having trouble with his health at the mo (stress and depression) and he has to work (sometimes 7 days a week) away. I do have a very nice mother in law that I could ask for helkp from. I think I shall do that, it is a positive step

[madmarchhare]

A trip back to your GP is in order I think.

Its good you get on well with your MIL. Try to arrange something with her so you can have some time to yourself.

[collision]

It doesnt help tho either if you are in the house on your own a lot. Do you get out with the children at all or do you stay in all day?

[spacedonkey]

Getting out of the house regularly will certainly help you, as will the company of others - but I know how when you're depressed it can be almost impossible to face going out of the front door, let alone socialising

[Meanoldmummy]

I sympathise. I can relate to your first post. It's a horrendous feeling. I think simple goals are a good start (not patronising you, it just helped me) eg if you manage to get out for an hour and take the kids to a park, then you're not allowed to feel guilty about all the things you didn't do that day. You deserve to feel proud of yourself for every little change you are able to make. If you clean the bathroom, or cook a meal, then that's an achievement for that day and sod everything else. I found that the list of things I felt guilty/scared/a failure about was so long and lumped together that it was exhausting just thinking about sorting it out. I do hop you find a way back up to the surface soon!

[spacedonkey]

meanoldmummy is right

when I was in my darkest days (or just coming out of them I suppose, because when you're in them you can't do anything), I would give myself a pat on the back just for getting out of bed. Getting dressed as well? Bonus!

A couple of book recommendations:

Self Help for your Nerves by Claire Weekes - sounds crap from the title, but it's an old classic and I have often gone back to it for reassurance

Feeling Good by David Burns - based on CBT, practical, reassuring, very good

Lastly, it will get better, I promise you

[Meanoldmummy]

It WILL. You will look back one day and be proud of yourself for getting through this.

[trinityrocks]

thanks for all your replies, I will ask my mil for some help and try to get out every day.