ds is 21 months...a beautiful handsome little boy...he's hit his milestones in life so far..he's generally a very good boy...content and happiest when its just me and him...im a quiet person..i like nothing more then sitting reading a book...and ds seems to have inherited the like for quiet time and loves to sit there with his toys or snuggled with me on sofa reading with me.....but it makes me feel guilty , like we should be doing noisey things and something tht other people would class as 'more exciting!' (dont get me wrong, ds loves to scream and shout too)
i am a single parent and have been since 5months preggers....i have had alot of support frm my mum..she's always been there for us.....i live in a bedsit waiting to be moved on to a 2 bed flat early this year.....
ever since ds grew out of the bottle stage...i have had a growing sense of guilt inside me....i cant tell you why i feel guilty..just that i do and i dont understand it....i feel like im failing him in some way...that he could be haveing a better life ...i have in NO WAY thought about leaving him...never ever...but at the end of the day i think things like 'why didnt i do more today...why didnt i cuddle him more....why did i have to tell him off, i dont want him upset'..
i deep down KNOW that i am a good mother....and no one could love him like i do...but why do i feel guilty!!! i cant put a finger on what it is....i've been away from him about 4 times in his life, for no longer then 2-3hours...and i feel painful guilt when i do that!....even just to pop to the shops while his nan has him!
its madness i know!
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why do i feel like im failing my son?
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faeriemum · 09/01/2006 17:09
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